Sometimes, in the battle of addiction, all you want is that magical pill that will cure it all. Or that bump on the head that will rattle things around up there and make you 'right'.... like everyone else. Its a terrible feeling, thinking that your struggling with something that will never be fixed. That you can never get away from. It can throw you into a never ending spiral of depression.
Joining Weight Watchers has helped me to see things a little more clearly. For one thing, I now know that I am not alone in my addiction. Not that I ever thought I was the only one dealing with a food addiction... but I never met anyone face to face that struggled with it. Second, I have finally been given a way to see things in a new light. Kind of like a pair of beer goggles... only lets call these... point shades. Not only do they make me look hot, sexy and skinny but looking through them allows me to see numbers instead of food. Seriously, its a whole new world.
Instead of seeing food.. I see the points they are worth. Somehow, that has triggered my OCD brain into finally seeing food the way I was always meant to. I've been eating clean and healthy for 3 days... without feeling starved, neglected, or craving anything!
In my daily reading of blogs I came across some great quotes over at Bitchcakes......
~ "You can never have enough of what you don't really need."
~ " FEEL the feelings. Don't FEED them."
~" If hunger is not the problem, then food is not the solution."
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