I am back up to 190 lbs and it shook me up a little bit. Not knowing what to do about it I turned to God. God , in return, put a book in front of me. It was on the sale rack at the library and I got it for a whole $1. At first I was weary about getting yet ANOTHER diet book. I took it home, stuck it on my shelf and forgot about it. I ate another 2500 calories last night. This morning I picked up the book, sat in a hot bath and read the first 3 chapters.
My heart was filled with hope and understanding. Guilt and consciousness. I am beginning to see that I can't change my eating habits without changing my heart first. I am a Christian.... I was baptised at 24 years old. But, as my pastor talked about last Sunday (coincidence??), you can grieve the Holy Spirit. You can lose that spark in you that yearns for God. I lost that spark years ago. Maybe in my quest for that perfect body??
I am focusing on a different life now. Maybe in my journey to putting that fire back in me I will also win my battle with my food addiction. God can do miracles... right!?!
I will keep you updated... and maybe even give you the name of the book!!!
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Yes, the name of the book! You can email me, if you don't want to put it here. :)
I am so with you, Tigerlilly. I have been Christian since I was in my early 20s, as well, and go up and down in my walk....just like my weight. I could write on and on about this...I've thought about it A LOT.
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