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The Book....

Although the Bible is usually my morning reading... I have replaced it, just for now, with The Rise Above . This book is helping me with my obsession with food... and showing me that where I should be focusing all this energy is on God. Why do I think of what I am going to eat next more then I do about what I can do for God??

It has opened my eyes to just how bad I really am. Right now I am trying to focus on only eating when my body tells me it is hungry... WATCH OUT!!!... this can be tricky. (at least for me) My head is constantly telling me I should eat something. Even when my stomach is saying NO MORE!!!

Of course I am still reading the Bible. This book offers fantastic references in the bible about food... and how we should see it.

Forgive my lack of posts, but I am without a computer right now. Hopefully by Christmas I will have a computer at home and can post a little more often and in a little more detail. (Its hard to put a lot of thought into my posts when I am being timed at the library!!)

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas.... enjoy the holiday... remember the reason for the season... and put a little less thought into your food and more on your mood!!!

A new look at it all....

I am back up to 190 lbs and it shook me up a little bit. Not knowing what to do about it I turned to God. God , in return, put a book in front of me. It was on the sale rack at the library and I got it for a whole $1. At first I was weary about getting yet ANOTHER diet book. I took it home, stuck it on my shelf and forgot about it. I ate another 2500 calories last night. This morning I picked up the book, sat in a hot bath and read the first 3 chapters.

My heart was filled with hope and understanding. Guilt and consciousness. I am beginning to see that I can't change my eating habits without changing my heart first. I am a Christian.... I was baptised at 24 years old. But, as my pastor talked about last Sunday (coincidence??), you can grieve the Holy Spirit. You can lose that spark in you that yearns for God. I lost that spark years ago. Maybe in my quest for that perfect body??

I am focusing on a different life now. Maybe in my journey to putting that fire back in me I will also win my battle with my food addiction. God can do miracles... right!?!

I will keep you updated... and maybe even give you the name of the book!!!

Don't Worry...

I'm still here. Just suffering from computer problems. I have to use the Library computer until we can afford a new computer now... its ok really, except for the fact that I can't post on my blog as much as I would like to. My house is staying amazingly clean. :)

I am sticking to my Almased and going to the gym 3-4 days a week. I have not stepped on the scale nor have I tried on my goal jeans yet. I think I will do both sometime in December. Until then I am trying my hardest to stay focused on the goal and keep making the healthy choices.

Blech........

Today I took the kids to the Trunk or Treat in downtown. It was freezing cold, but my kids toughed it out and made it the entire two block circle. Luckily we arrived early, because by the time we left the place was PACKED. It was wonderful to see the whole town show up... and everyone was in a good mood... except me. Being around that many people gives me anxiety. Half way through and I found myself walking faster and just trying to get it done as fast as possible. Because the girls were cold, I dont think they minded all that much.

We got home and I ate enough candy to turn an elephant diabetic. So, now that I have a headache, a stomach ache and just all around mad with myself... I am making my goals for the week.

1) Stick to my Almased shakes (2 meal replacements a day)

2) At least 4 good workouts at the gym this week

3) WATER WATER WATER

4) Put my goal jeans on the top of my other jeans so that I have to look at them everyday. 

As for the rest of today. No more sugar for me. I am going to make a nice light, healthy dinner and drink some water.

Halloween Candy

Every year I have the same dilemma. To eat the candy or not eat the candy. I have decided that its ok to eat the candy. ONE piece will not break me... however, the challenge will be not to eat the bag. You know I can't eat just one.  :(  AND... why did I have to buy chocolate???? I should have stuck to my rule of buying the candy I hate. *sigh*

On the bright side... I found an awesome dessert recipe yesterday and decided to make it for a dinner party we are going to tonight! Go HERE for the recipe! I will let you know how it goes over...

(pic thanks to Prior Fat Girl and her post on it! )

Yesterday was my day off from the gym. I also ran out of my Almased and didn't have time to buy more... so I feel a little lost this morning. No shake?  I may have to hit the GNC the minute the lights turn on. Until then, I do have some yummy apples in the fridge!

I'm not sure what I'm doing today... It may turn out to be another rest day, or it could turn into an awesome gym day. Right now, I just feel like crawling into my baby's bed and snuggling. There is nothing better then a 6 year olds morning breath and her footy pajamas wrapped around you!

My 'Goal' Jeans...

WARNING: Unflattering pics ahead....

Who doesn't want a pair of rhinestone jeans???

The gap in the front is a big one... but I have faith I can get these babies buttoned in 90 days!!

Ugh... suck in the gut next time!!

Size 13... IN JUNIORS.... I'm not sure this is possible, since I am no longer a Jr., but I'm gonna give it my all!!

Day 1 has commenced..... by January 24th I will be wearing these babies!!

I've been bitten by the bug...

Since getting our gym membership I have workout everyday!! Thanks to a great kids care area I can drop the girls off for an hour and go do my thing. I have done free weight, running, stairs, bike, swimming laps and more!  I love this place. The best part is that it get me excited to go. The girls are happy for the hour they are in there... so it gives me an hour to focus on myself!

I am not getting on the scale. I am tired of seeing the numbers not move... so instead I will be going through my box of 'skinny jeans' and finding the perfect goal jeans!! I will post a pic as soon as I find them. I think I will even throw in a challenge. 90 days to get into them!!!

Monday

I really hate it when people moan and groan that it is Monday. I think those people are looking at it in the wrong way. Monday, to me, is like a fresh start. Another chance to start the week off right!  Sure, my Mondays consist of getting the kids ready for school, doing school, cleaning up the house after a weekend of disasters and doing a million chores..... but after all that is said and done.... when Monday is over and I have accomplished all I needed to, I feel good. I feel like another week is off on the right foot.

This morning I had my Almased shake and a big glass of water. My arms are in a lot of pain after our little gym day on Saturday. Its a good pain though!  Sunday we did a lot of hiking (where I took the picture above!) so my legs are feeling good too!  All in all, its gonna be a good Monday.... and a good week!

Claire.... I'm praying for you!! I know you will rock it. A little trick I do for my Almased shake to make it taste better is add cinnamon!! Its not the best tasting drink, but it fills you up and it makes you feel good. Good luck and keep me updated!