Here We Go!

Like I promised... before pics, weight and measurements. Oy!

WT: 183.4
Chest: 42
Waist: 36
Hips: 41.5
Neck: 13.25
Arms: 14
Legs: 25.5


So far I am on day 3 of the Insanity. The workouts are crazy... but nothing that isn't possible. Its just a matter of stepping outside your (my) comfort zone and getting the job done. I am still sticking with my bag class... so that is an extra workout 3 days a week. 57 more days... can't wait to see the difference!

Life is .... INSANE!!!!

On my quest to becoming sane I have done the insane and , you guessed it, I signed up for Insanity.

Two months of craziness... but I think it is exactly what I need right now to keep motivated. I'll let you know when I get it (should be in 5-7 days) and will do a full weigh in, picture and measurements post so we can all see the difference!

As for today... I'm still fighting my food cravings, pushing down water and trying to keep myself positive.

I can't control everything....

.... but I can control how I react to it.

My Hubby and I went to a class at my gym last weekend. It was a self defense class. The funny thing was, I got more out of the teachers talking... then the actual moves he was showing us. He started out by talking about self control (obviously a huge problem for me and food) and how depression, stress and mood all come from a lack of control. No, not the lack of controlling everything around you... but the lack of controlling yourself and how you react to things. Duh! This made so much sense.

So then my question was, how do you get control of yourself again? How do you train for that?

Obviously its a mind thing. You have to continue to tell yourself ... "I can't control everything, but I can control how I react to it" .  Training is a huge part of this. Being able to physically push your way through a tough workout that you normally would walk away from ....   Being mindful of what your eating ..... Its all part of the training... You can't have a healthy mind without a healthy body, and you can't push your body to be healthy without giving it the perfect fuel.

Today I start my 'controlled' way of life. I will focus on making every bite count. I will drink tons of water. I will take care of my body from here on out. I may not be able to control everything around me.... but I sure as hell can control ME!

The goals in mind....

The only thing that keeps me going is motivation. I have to have a goal in mind in order to stay focused every day. A weight goal just doesn't cut it anymore.... I get to frustrated when I don't see that number on the scale... so I do physical goals. A year ago today I was running the PF Chang Rock N' Roll half marathon. If I tried running today I'd die before reaching my first mile. But over a year ago I would wake up at 5 a.m. just to get in a couple of miles running before Hubby went to work.

I wasn't at my goal weight when I ran the half marathon  (and completed it!!) but I was definitley in better shape then I am now.

So, what is my goal? I have a couple.

* To be in a size 8 pants by summer
* To run the Warrior Dash with my husband in August
* To complete the Hard Ready class with my husband and be 10 lbs lighter!!

I know that I didn't describe any of these very well... but I will later.. promise. As for now... these are my goals that I will keep in my everyday.

I'm off to drink some water.

A New Year.... another me.

Every year I promise myself that this will be the year. The year I drop the last 50, 40 or 30 lbs. The year I run that half marathon, 10K or marathon. The year that I finally prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to.

I guess I've done pretty good the last couple of years... maybe I should just keep trying. :)

I am back... at 183 lbs... and ready to get back in shape. I have a lot to work around this time. I am working full time at night and am home LATE. Its been a bad habit to come home, strip the uniform and then chow down before going to bed at midnight. I know better then to do this... but for some reason, it still happens.

My hands and feet are swollen from a lack of water. Seriously, I don't remember the last time I had a glass of water.

I am addicted to sugar again.... an addiction that I know I can break, but have  lacked the ability to lately.

I am stressed and depressed. Two things that go hand in hand in my life. This leads me to eating... a lot.

So, how am I going to change anything this year? Well, first off, I am going to get up and drink a glass of water right now (feel free to join me, I'll wait for you!)...........

That tasted better then I remember! Now I am going to go throw away all the cookies and junk food that is in my kitchen. Don't try to fool yourself... the husband and kids don't need to be eating that crap either..........

Now, I will make sure that I eat something healthy tonight before I go to work. Maybe a protein shake.

I will drink water at work when I can.... and when I come home I will drink more water and then go to bed.

There.... that's a good start. We'll work on it some more tomorrow...........