Blech........

Today I took the kids to the Trunk or Treat in downtown. It was freezing cold, but my kids toughed it out and made it the entire two block circle. Luckily we arrived early, because by the time we left the place was PACKED. It was wonderful to see the whole town show up... and everyone was in a good mood... except me. Being around that many people gives me anxiety. Half way through and I found myself walking faster and just trying to get it done as fast as possible. Because the girls were cold, I dont think they minded all that much.

We got home and I ate enough candy to turn an elephant diabetic. So, now that I have a headache, a stomach ache and just all around mad with myself... I am making my goals for the week.

1) Stick to my Almased shakes (2 meal replacements a day)

2) At least 4 good workouts at the gym this week

3) WATER WATER WATER

4) Put my goal jeans on the top of my other jeans so that I have to look at them everyday. 

As for the rest of today. No more sugar for me. I am going to make a nice light, healthy dinner and drink some water.

Halloween Candy

Every year I have the same dilemma. To eat the candy or not eat the candy. I have decided that its ok to eat the candy. ONE piece will not break me... however, the challenge will be not to eat the bag. You know I can't eat just one.  :(  AND... why did I have to buy chocolate???? I should have stuck to my rule of buying the candy I hate. *sigh*

On the bright side... I found an awesome dessert recipe yesterday and decided to make it for a dinner party we are going to tonight! Go HERE for the recipe! I will let you know how it goes over...

(pic thanks to Prior Fat Girl and her post on it! )

Yesterday was my day off from the gym. I also ran out of my Almased and didn't have time to buy more... so I feel a little lost this morning. No shake?  I may have to hit the GNC the minute the lights turn on. Until then, I do have some yummy apples in the fridge!

I'm not sure what I'm doing today... It may turn out to be another rest day, or it could turn into an awesome gym day. Right now, I just feel like crawling into my baby's bed and snuggling. There is nothing better then a 6 year olds morning breath and her footy pajamas wrapped around you!

My 'Goal' Jeans...

WARNING: Unflattering pics ahead....

Who doesn't want a pair of rhinestone jeans???

The gap in the front is a big one... but I have faith I can get these babies buttoned in 90 days!!

Ugh... suck in the gut next time!!

Size 13... IN JUNIORS.... I'm not sure this is possible, since I am no longer a Jr., but I'm gonna give it my all!!

Day 1 has commenced..... by January 24th I will be wearing these babies!!

I've been bitten by the bug...

Since getting our gym membership I have workout everyday!! Thanks to a great kids care area I can drop the girls off for an hour and go do my thing. I have done free weight, running, stairs, bike, swimming laps and more!  I love this place. The best part is that it get me excited to go. The girls are happy for the hour they are in there... so it gives me an hour to focus on myself!

I am not getting on the scale. I am tired of seeing the numbers not move... so instead I will be going through my box of 'skinny jeans' and finding the perfect goal jeans!! I will post a pic as soon as I find them. I think I will even throw in a challenge. 90 days to get into them!!!

Monday

I really hate it when people moan and groan that it is Monday. I think those people are looking at it in the wrong way. Monday, to me, is like a fresh start. Another chance to start the week off right!  Sure, my Mondays consist of getting the kids ready for school, doing school, cleaning up the house after a weekend of disasters and doing a million chores..... but after all that is said and done.... when Monday is over and I have accomplished all I needed to, I feel good. I feel like another week is off on the right foot.

This morning I had my Almased shake and a big glass of water. My arms are in a lot of pain after our little gym day on Saturday. Its a good pain though!  Sunday we did a lot of hiking (where I took the picture above!) so my legs are feeling good too!  All in all, its gonna be a good Monday.... and a good week!

Claire.... I'm praying for you!! I know you will rock it. A little trick I do for my Almased shake to make it taste better is add cinnamon!! Its not the best tasting drink, but it fills you up and it makes you feel good. Good luck and keep me updated!

We finally got a gym membership. I am super excited to go this morning. My muscles are aching to be used and I need to break a good sweat!  Is it possible my body is yearning to be used the way it should be? My stomach is tired of bad food and I am CRAVING veggies and fruits. 

If you listen close enough, your body tells you everything. 

Almased... anyone??

So I got this stuff called Almased at GNC.  I was wondering if anyone has tried this stuff? I have used it for one week already... substituting my breakfast and lunch with a shake and then eating dinner with the family.  I have to say that so far it is making me feel SO much better. I feel like my blood sugar is balanced... my digestion (or lack there of) is better. The bloating in my stomach is gone and I just feel awesome. I think I have lost a couple of pounds on it.. but to be honest I am stepping away from the scale right now and just focusing on feeling better.

I think I will continue with it for a couple more weeks and see how it goes.... of course pay day isn't until Friday, so this week I will have to go without... but I think I found something I can really stick with! Its a start anyway.

So here I am in the beautiful state of Colorado. I am surrounded by mountains, rivers and lakes. The weather is amazing and I have no reason at all to stay indoors... at least not until the snow comes!! Even then I have found a gym here that has an indoor running track, indoor pool and some awesome workout classes. I have NO reason, whatsoever, to NOT hit my goal this time. Well, there is ONE thing holding me back. ME!!

 I've been my number one enemy since the start.... I've kicked my own butt more then once... and for some reason I keep getting back up to fight myself again and again and again.  (You can't say I'm a quitter!)

I'm not going to start with "Day 1"  or "Beginning Weight"  because this is by no means the first round... or even the 50th. This is just the next chapter....  in a very long book!

Today was not perfect, by any means, but it was another good day. Tomorrow, I'm hoping, will be better.

When life smacks you down... take a breather and get back up!!

I know I have been gone for some time now. I feel as if my life has been on a roller coaster for the last two years. To sum it up for you.. We moved across the country... TWICE. My husband had a great job but we felt it was too far from our families. So a year later (almost to the day) we moved back. We stayed with family for 6 months before my husband got a job... that has moved us yet again. Only this time only a couple of states away! For the first time in a LONG time I am finally feeling settled enough to start focusing on me again. That last thought has taken me a while to get comfortable with... being a Mom you never want to put yourself first. You are always last on the list. But what happens to them if something happens to you? Then who will take care of them. Sometimes you have to be selfish in order to care for those you love the most. So, its time to be selfish. These last few months... ok, years?? ... I have stayed about the same weight. 181 lbs. That is a 8 lbs gain from my lowest back before we moved the first time. I am ok with that. The bad part is that I am no longer a fit 181. I am a flabby, can't run a block 181. Believe me, there is a difference. But I am in the mind set to get it all back and more. My final goal is 163 and fit. This may take some time to get back in the grove of things... but hopefully I still have some readers out there to keep me on track and motivated!?!