When life smacks you down... take a breather and get back up!!

I know I have been gone for some time now. I feel as if my life has been on a roller coaster for the last two years. To sum it up for you.. We moved across the country... TWICE. My husband had a great job but we felt it was too far from our families. So a year later (almost to the day) we moved back. We stayed with family for 6 months before my husband got a job... that has moved us yet again. Only this time only a couple of states away! For the first time in a LONG time I am finally feeling settled enough to start focusing on me again. That last thought has taken me a while to get comfortable with... being a Mom you never want to put yourself first. You are always last on the list. But what happens to them if something happens to you? Then who will take care of them. Sometimes you have to be selfish in order to care for those you love the most. So, its time to be selfish. These last few months... ok, years?? ... I have stayed about the same weight. 181 lbs. That is a 8 lbs gain from my lowest back before we moved the first time. I am ok with that. The bad part is that I am no longer a fit 181. I am a flabby, can't run a block 181. Believe me, there is a difference. But I am in the mind set to get it all back and more. My final goal is 163 and fit. This may take some time to get back in the grove of things... but hopefully I still have some readers out there to keep me on track and motivated!?!