Have a Happy Halloween!!

Just Kidding!!!  I didn't eat all of it... just a couple!

See ya'll on Monday for Weigh In Day!!!

Day 83

WT: 181.8

- 1.8 lbs

Sorry for the lack of posts, but Momma has me running around like crazy. Museums, shopping, skating, parks.... and dentists. (I had a terrible tooth ache yesterday)

I am going to my boxing classes.... and still loving it.... and am trying to make good food choices. I'm holding steady!

Day 78

I'm sorry for the lack of posts, but sometimes I just don't have anything to say.  I've had a good week so far. I did my boxing class mon, tue and wed. My food has been written down and double checked. I did good up until yesterday... so I will consider yesterday my 'cheat' day and just move on.

My mom is arriving today!!! I am so excited. We have all been dealing with a little homesickness lately. I'm not sure if her being here is going to make it better or worse... .but I will definitely enjoy her company while she is here!  This is not the first time I've lived 2,000 miles away from her... but this time it seems to be so much harder.  Having the kids always wanting to see her or talk to her can be a little overwhelming. Not being able to just drive to her house when I need a talk is even harder. I am finding that its the very little things I am missing the most back home. Even Hubby has been calling his family a little more often every week. We've been in North Carolina for almost 6 months now... but I don't think we are going to last too much longer. I hate to say it but I think it took us moving  2,198 miles away to figure out where exactly we are supposed to be.

I am in no rush to pack up the house again and move. But I think eventually we will try to get back to Arizona.

In the mean time I will enjoy my sister and her husband.... my new friends.... and go exploring new territory. I will continue to focus on my food and my workouts and I will take full advantage of my boxing classes while I can....

Day 75... To be a fighter you have to live like a fighter.

Hanging around the gym I have rubbed elbows with a lot of professional fighters. The way they train for hours a day is amazing... and inspirational.  What shocked me was what they do outside of the gym. Their training does not stop at the door on the way out. Which might be my problem.

I had an 'Ah-Ha' moment last night after my boxing class. I was washing my hands after class like I always do (because the smell that comes out of those boxing gloves are disgusting and I can't go a second longer after taking them off to wash my hands) and overheard a conversation between two of the pro lady fighters. It was about nutrition. One was giving advice to the other. The other took out her notebook and started pointing to what I later discovered was her food journal. You see, even though she has the perfect body and looks amazing.. .she, too, has to track every piece of food. Her training carries out into the parking lot, into her car and  followers her for the rest of the day. 

Not only do they push themselves for hours a day in the gym.... but they stay strong and in training for every second of the day.  This blew my mind... and in some ways shattered my dream of reaching goal and then being able to just let it all go. (come on now, you know that was your dream too)

I'm not really sure what I expected a fighters life to be like... but my guess was they worked out hours a day in the gym and then went home and lived a regular life. In some ways they do... if you think weighing your food, counting calories, counting water oz and sticking to a strict schedule is 'normal'. I may actually believe now that NOBODY was ever just 'born' with it. 

So... in order to have the body of a fighter I have to live a life of a fighter. This mentality is something that could really help me. Its the mental part that I've always had a problem with, but to have the reason behind the insanity may just help me get through it all and achieve a goal. 

Today I sat down and planned out my food for the day. I made sure I stayed in my calorie zone of 1500... then I went back and double checked that I was getting the right percentage of carbs/protein/fat. I had to do a little tweaking here and there (exchanging eggs at lunch for more protein in tuna fish), but I ended up with the perfect food plan for today. I have my gallon jug of water that I plan on drinking and exceeding... especially if I plan on going to boxing class again tonight. 

This mornings weight was 181.4.... so I'm feeling good about getting back into the 170's by next weigh in....

To be a fighter, you have to live like a fighter.  <----- this may be my new mantra 

Day 74 Weigh In

183.6

-2 lbs

Eh. Not what I was hoping to see, but at least it is a loss.

I am slowly figuring this whole food thing out. The hardest thing for me is to eat every couple of hours.. and then stop eating for a couple of hours. Snacks are like bombshells that are headed straight for the dam... once they hit, the dam breaks and I have to keep eating... I never feel satisfied.

I talked to my nutritionist who looked at me like I was crazy (I was obviously her first food addict) and then gave me the advice to stick to my menu and after each snack and meal to drink a giant glass of water. I wasn't sure that was going to work, but let me tell you... I can eat tons and tons of food and never feel full... but one giant glass of water and I am so full I feel sick. So, I found my secret helper. Another good thing about it is that it helps me get my water in.

I am still loving my boxing classes and am excited every time I walk into the gym. I am signed up for 6 months and I need to make the most out it.

I saw a picture of an old frienemy (half friend, half enemy) back home today. We always, secretly, had a contest going on between us to lose the weight.We were both in a singing contest a couple years back where we weighed about the same. After that we were both invited to be in a band together. It may have always been a jealousy issue (because she IS an amazing singer) but we always clashed. When we saw each other out on the town it was always a quick glance to see who was wearing the skinnier jeans. When we moved I was ahead of the game... by at least 30 lbs... but today, she looks amazing. She is easily down to 150 lbs....  I have a lot of work to do to catch up and look better! Talk about motivation. We might be going back there one day...

Day 69

I know I flipped out this week with my weight gain, but believe it or not I am taking it in stride. I talked to my nutritionist about the gain, worried that I was eating too many calories. She explained to me that because I have been starving my body of nutrition (and calories) for so long, it is storing everything right now, waiting for the next starvation to come along. She told me to hang tough and stick with it for one month.

One month.... that kinda freaked me out. I gained 6 lbs in one week... what would I do in a month??  But so far I think she was right. My daily weigh in has stayed right around 185... so no more gaining (no loss either.. .booo)   and I am also working my butt off in boxing class 4 nights a week. I think my body literally went into shock.

Today I woke up and looked in the mirror. 185.4 looked a little more like 179. My back looks less rolly.. my arms are showing a little muscle.... my belly, while still a little chubby, is a little smaller. All in all, my body feels a little tighter.

I've had this feeling  before. When I was 14 my daddy enrolled me in Tae Kwon Do to lose weight. I went to class 4 nights a week and would come home drenched in sweat. My dad monitored my food and made sure I was eating healthy. In 3 months I lost 50 lbs and started my freshman year of high school a sexy 145 lbs.  During those 3 months I remember feeling a change going on. Everything started feeling better. Things were starting to click. Over night I went from a chubby kid to a skinny, healthy young lady. That change is what I'm feeling again. Things are starting to click in my head again. Food = Fuel.

It won't be an overnight change.... but everyday that I give it my all is one day closer to being that healthy young lady again.

Boxing is helping me out tons... but I'm going to find a race in town to sign up for (even if its just a 5K) to get me motivated to train again. Thursdays and Fridays will be designated running nights! I like this feeling.....

Day 68..... I'll say it in pictures

You can't say I'm not trying.....

What can you do in 100 Days?? ... Day 67 Weigh In... what the @*&#%@$@

WT: 185.6

+ 6 lbs


What the hell?????? Seriously, I dont understand this crap. I went to a birthday party and ate... an apple. I went to a pig roast and stuck to 3 oz of pig, one small serving of beans and two bites of green bean casserole. I drank a gallon of water yesterday. I have stuck to my diet plan 100 percent. I think 1500 calories is WAY too much for me.

?????????


I am frustrated but there is nothing else I can do about it. Tonight I have boxing class . I guess I will just focus on eating healthy and drinking my water . I'm lowering my calories to 1200 again. No bread and extra salads.

Deep breaths..... I can do it.

Oh and thank you to Jack Sh*t for keeping me company .... and then reminding me why I'm doing this again!

Day 63- You should see the OTHER guy!

Last night was an awesome bag class. War cries, tears, bruises and pools of sweat.  I keep meaning to snap a picture when I get home, but am so exhausted I'm lucky to make it to the shower!  I do have this picture to show you! I knew I kicked the bag hard last night.... I just didn't know the bag hit back!!  Proof that I'm working hard.... 

It looks a lot worse in person, I swear!  Its obvious that I am better with my right leg... cuz my left leg only has a tiny little bruise that won't even show up in a picture! LOL

Anyway, today and tomorrow are my nights off from bag class. I'm a little sad because I just love it so much.. .and I also don't know how I'm going to get an hour of walking in. I KNOW... its just walking... but its boring and I seriously hate it. If I could run, then I would totally be into it... but walking?? It doesnt help that we just moved to this city and the only place I know to walk is the 1/3 of a mile block that our house is on. *sigh*  No worries, I'll get it in.

Food is food. Why does it have to be so complicated?  Today my goal is 100% clean. Whether I"m over my servings or not... it will all be clean.  With lots of water.

:)

Day 62

  "“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”" - Emerson


Met with the nutritionalist yesterday. The one thing I have realized is this.... its going to take a whole lot of planning.


Because everything she gave me is hers, I can't go posting it all over the web. But I will tell you that it is all about balance and servings. Which means that I have to have my whole days food planned out the second I wake up in order to make it work.  It wont be too hard once I figure out all the food options I have. The best part about it all is that it is based on clean eating... and a very doable habit to make for the rest of my life. I just need to stick to it, master it and kick butt! 


She did raise my calories to 1500, which did freak me out a little... but it makes sense to. We'll try it for one month and then if there is no change we will drop it down a little bit. 


She also helped me figure out what I need to be doing for working out. I will be doing bag class M, W and Sat.... and doing low impact walking for 1 hour on T, Th and Friday with Sunday as my off day. It threw me off yesterday because I was planning on going to bag last night.... so instead I tried Yoga... People, I HATE yoga. I know it feels great when your all done, but damn... it sucks. So I did 10 minutes and then grabbed my shoes and headed outside for a 20 minute walk. Not at all my 1 hour walk I was supposed to do... but I just wasn't ready. Tonight is bag class and I can't wait. Then tomorrow i will be psyched up to do a one hour walk .... somewhere. :) 


Today I have my food ready and counted. My water jug is full and I have a busy day a head of me. 


Focus
Focus
Focus

Day 61

Went to boxing last night. Once again, I left a HUGE puddle of sweat! That class is amazing. Best of all, you get all of your stress out. My poor bag has really felt it. At the end of the class you spar your bag for 2 minutes. The last 15 seconds I was dying, but the guy next to me let out this huge battle cry and it made all of us dive in and give it all we had. I can't wait to go back tonight!

Today is the day the trainer from the gym comes and gives me some nutritional advice. I'm really interested in what she has to say. I'm really hoping I have an "A-ha!" moment and it all just clicks.

I've got a lot to do today... !

What can YOU do in 100 days?...... Day 60 - Weigh In Day

Last wt: 182.4
Today:   179.6
Lost!   -2.8 lbs

I'm sorry for the lack of posts last week but I had a rough week with this cough and cold (and there just wasn't anything new to report) ... but by Saturday I felt good enough to go to a boxing class at the gym down the street. I punched, kicked and mountain climbed my way through an hour and felt fantastic. So good that I signed up for the class. The class is 6 days a week, but because two of the classes are midday I will only be able to make 4 of the classes. Still a good start. At least now I will have more of a scheduled workout.

I'm excited about this. To make it even better, one of the trainers at the gym has offered to help me with my nutrition. She is coming over for an hour tomorrow afternoon and then she will do follow up every Saturday after our morning boxing class. I don't know what to expect.. .or if what she tells me will be more then what I know now. But I'm hoping it will at least keep me a little more mindful about what I am eating.

Being in that gym is a very good feeling. Everyone there is serious about the shape they are in. In honesty there are maybe a handful of out of shape people.. .the rest are UFC fighters, policemen, military and trainers. I may be a little bit intimidated by it all, but in a good way. I want to look like these people... and being there 4 times a week will help me stay focused on that.

I have boxing tonight at 6 .... I can't wait!

Seeing that its day 60 and I am still bouncing back and forth with the weight is a little disheartening... but I'll be honest. I always finish with a bang, even if its with a last minute shoot to the end. So I am looking forward to these last 40 days.