Every morning I step on the scale and in the back of my head is the number I am hoping to see. Lately I've been a little shocked at the first number I think of . 193. WHAT?? Wait a minute, I'm not even close to the 190's anymore!! I seriously have to do a quick check before I remember that , yes, I am now in the 180's ..... and the low 180's at that!!! So why is my head still stuck in the 190's???
I have had a TERRIBLE tooth ache this past week. I finally gave in to my fear of dentists and made an appointment for Monday morning. UGH!!!! It turns my stomach just thinking of the dentists office...
Tonight my mom is having a 'Girls Night Out' at her house. There will by 20-something women of all ages there to mingle with. I'm looking forward to it. There will be a ton of food there, including 3 cream pies that I have to pick up from the bakers on the way there for her. My plan is to stick to the veggie plates. With this toothache it will be easy to stay away from most of the food anyway! Since I don't drink, it will be water, water, water for me.
Tomorrow Angel is getting her eyes checked. She hasn't shown any signs of having a problem seeing, but they are doing a back to school special and I figured it wouldn't hurt to check anyway. After the Dr. we are going to the park path where she and I are going to do some running.... but I'll take the stroller just in case.
Hope y'all have a good weekend and we'll see you for Weigh In on Monday!!!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
It's ok to say 'NO'....
I'm really loving the group that has come together over at O.F.B. If you haven't checked it out yet, then get your butt over there and sign up. What do you have to lose??
So, this weeks Special Op is to post a blog, preferably with a photo, about your biggest hurdle/challenge that you need to overcome in order to succeed. So here is mine:
So, this weeks Special Op is to post a blog, preferably with a photo, about your biggest hurdle/challenge that you need to overcome in order to succeed. So here is mine:
Yep, that's right. My BRAIN is my biggest hurdle. My addiction to food is all in my head. My lack of motivation comes from my head. My low self esteem... comes from my head.
So how do you overcome yourself? With a whole lot of determination, understanding, love, prayer, hope and luck! The first step, much like any other first step, is acknowledging that I have a problem. Now that I know where my problem is, I can focus a lot more on what I am THINKING when I eat. Am I hungry? Is this really what I need to eat? Is this really going to make me feel better?
Half the time the answers to those questions is NO. Since I have learned to tell myself 'NO' I have become more successful. I have learned not to listen to my head.. but to pay attention to my body. Like when my stomach hurts when I eat dairy,or when I feel nauseous after eating sugar... because my head may be saying YUMMY but my body is saying Nooooooo!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
AaaaaaaaaaaaaCHOOOOO!
**sniffle, sniffle**
I have a cold, or maybe its allergies.. I'm not sure. All I know is that I'm sniffling, sneezing and feeling blah. I'm not letting it get me down though... I am still making good food choices (easy, since I cant taste anything right now anyway!).
I have to get better before August 1st, because that is my first day of training for my first ever half marathon!! I will be doing the PF Chang Rock N' Roll Marathon in Scottsdale, Az in January... so if anyone is close by... join me!! It will be a blast...
I have an idea of how I want to train for it... and of course it involves a whole lot of running. But the most important part for me, at least for the first 3 or 4 months will be my food. I still need to lose 10-20 lbs (20 if I'm going to get my tattoo!!) before January, and in all honesty, I think I will be able to do a whole lot better with that weight off anyway!
My priorities for the next 4 months:
1. Food = quality and quantity. I will be eating clean from now on. No sugar, no dairy... nothing packaged. Only fresh fruits, veggies and proteins.
2. Water = I have got to get in my 10+ glasses of water a day. I cant be out their running myself dry.
3. Running = I have decided that I will be training for the marathon on an outdoor track and not on my treadmill. I think it will give me a better idea of what I can do. So I will be hitting the school track during the week and then the hilly park on Saturdays!
I'm excited to do this. Its something that I've never done before.... and I really want to make sure I give it my all.
I'm off to take some vitamin C and drink my water.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Bringing out the bathing suit....
I managed to make it all the way to August before even thinking about wearing a bathing suit. But , low and behold, my mom decided to invite us to a weekend down in the city... just to swim. This isn't a huge deal. I wont be strutting down a beach in front of hundreds... it will be a small pool in a private hotel that will , maybe, have two or three other people there. It really is just me that I'm worried about. I want to look good in a bathing suit. I want to feel confident walking through the lobby without having to wear a giant t-shirt. I want to be proud of what I look like this summer.
I have a month to get ready. A month to stick the the food plan, stick to the exercise and make myself proud. My goal? Lose another 10 lbs.
Here we go.....
Monday, July 27, 2009
A Walk in the Park
If only weight loss was just that, a walk in the park. I would have lost 5 lbs today... but its not and I lost 0 lbs today. Yep, nada...zip...zilch was lost this week. **sigh** Oh well.
Berry Cobbler.... I made it with Splenda and soy milk, but it was still more calories then I needed!
Recipe:
1 stick of butter (or a couple of tablespoons of EVOO)
2 cups self rising flour
2 cups sugar (or 1 cup Splenda)
2 cups milk (or Soy Milk)
2 lbs fresh or frozen berries (or fruit of your choice)
Cover your pan or skillet with butter/oil. Pour batter into a pan (9 x 13 or iron skillet) and then place berries on top. Stick in a preheated oven at 350-375 for 30 minutes or until the edges get a golden brown color to them. Serve with whip cream or ice cream.
WARNING: not a 'diet' food. but definitely an easy dessert for a special occasion. YUMMO!!
.......and the reason I kicked ass this week, but didn't lose a pound! LOL. At least its Monday again!
I did have a great day on Sunday with the girls. I was tired of being in the house, so I grabbed the double stroller and headed to town to take the girls for a walk on the path around the park.
It was hot.... if you cant tell by the look on the girls faces!! So we loaded up on water and sunscreen.
Baby took this pic from the stroller with her own camera. Granny and Bill joined us on the walk too!! I tried to keep the pace fast, which was pretty hard because the path included lots of up and down hills.... I think next time I will go a little earlier and try to run this course. This time we stopped with just one go-round. I could have gone around again, but it was getting TOO hot. So we went home and ruined it all with a slice of this:
Berry Cobbler.... I made it with Splenda and soy milk, but it was still more calories then I needed!Recipe:
1 stick of butter (or a couple of tablespoons of EVOO)
2 cups self rising flour
2 cups sugar (or 1 cup Splenda)
2 cups milk (or Soy Milk)
2 lbs fresh or frozen berries (or fruit of your choice)
Cover your pan or skillet with butter/oil. Pour batter into a pan (9 x 13 or iron skillet) and then place berries on top. Stick in a preheated oven at 350-375 for 30 minutes or until the edges get a golden brown color to them. Serve with whip cream or ice cream.
WARNING: not a 'diet' food. but definitely an easy dessert for a special occasion. YUMMO!!
.......and the reason I kicked ass this week, but didn't lose a pound! LOL. At least its Monday again!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
More then you ever wanted to know about me....
1) Are your parents married or divorced? My Mom and Dad were married for 25 years before my dad passed away...
2) Are you a vegetarian?I’m slowly working towards it. We only eat meat about once a week, though.
3) Do you believe in Heaven? Of course!
4) Have you ever come close to dying? Came close to it during a surgery once about 5 years ago.
5) What jewelry do you wear? earrings, wedding rings, anniversary ring and a necklace every now and then
6) Favorite time of day? Morning
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?Of course.
8) Do you wear makeup? Only when I go out... and even then its very little.
9) Ever have plastic surgery? No, but I'm hoping for a boob job in a couple of years!
10) Do you color your hair? Just highlights now.
11) What do you wear to bed? It depends... if I'm going to workout in the morning then I wear my workout clothes to bed so that I am ready to hop on the treadmill when I wake up!
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? Not on purpose!
13) Can you roll your tongue?Not as well as I can roll my eyes…
14) Do You tweeze your eyebrows?I have them waxed.
15) What kind of sneakers? I'm not sure, but they work!
16) Do you still own vinyl? Yes! I have my days when I just sit back and listen to some old jazz records of my dads.
17) What is your hair color?It was black... but now its black with 5 different highlights in it.
18) Future child’s name? If we had another girl (which we wont because I cant have any more) her name would be Piper...
19) Do you snore? My husband says I do, but I don't believe him.
20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? Australia or New Zealand
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Only when one of my daughters accidentally leaves one in my bed.
22) If you won the lottery? I would buy a bigger house, pay off our debts and put the rest into a savings account so that my Husband could retire early!
23) Gold or silver?White gold.
24) Hamburger or hot dog?Are you trying to kill me? Fruit and vegetables!
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? chocolate, peanut butter and blueberry protein shake!
26) City, beach or country?Definitely country.... with beach as a close second
27) What was the last thing you touched? my keyboard
28) Where did you eat last? Green chilli burrito... mmmmmmm
29) When’s the last time you cried? Watching America's Got Talent...
30) Do you read blogs?Yes, lots of them!
31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? I usually do... wranglers, long sleeved shirt, boots and a baseball cap!
32) Ever been involved with the police?I dated a policeman once.
33) What’s your favorite shampoo, conditioner and soap? Aussie shampoo/conditioner and Ivory soap
34) Do you talk in your sleep? When I'm sick...
35) Ocean or pool? Pool
36) What’s your favorite song? You Are My Sunshine....
37) What is your favorite color(s)? Red
39 Ever met anyone famous? Madonna, Mr. T and Santana
40) Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life? I'm not rich or famous. I am not a brain surgeon and I haven't found the cure for cancer... but I'm a mother and a wife. Its all the success I need!
41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?Twirl
42) Ricki Lake or Oprah? Neither ....
\43)Basketball or Football?Neither... I'm a UFC fan.
44) How long do your showers last? I have two kids... I'm lucky to get all the soap out of my hair!
45) Automatic or do you drive a stick? I have one of each
46) Cake or ice cream? Pie
47) Are you self-conscious?Sometimes.
48) Have you ever drank so much you threw up? ... Oh yeah, the good ole days. Much of the reason I know longer drink!
49) Have you ever given money to a tramp? Uh, no.
50) Have you been in love? Madly
51) Where do you wish you were?Hanging with the gals at BlogHer.
52) Are you wearing socks? No, I'm a barefoot gal
53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Not as a patient, but I've driven one!
54) Can you tango? No, but I would love to learn
55) Last gift you received? A 1977 GMC truck!
56) Last sport you played? Tang Soo Do... (is martial arts considered a sport??)
57) Things you spend a lot of money on? Food
58) Where do you live? Arizona
59) Where were you born? In a hospital
60) Last wedding attended?My best friends... I was her bridesmaid
61) Favorite alcoholic drink? I no longer drink
62) What did you do last weekend? Went on a road trip
63) Most hated food(s)?Anything deep-fried, like French fries, or anything with artificial sweeteners
64) What’s your least favorite chore? folding laundry
65) Can you sing? Yes... at least the karaoke lady says I can!! LOL
66) Last person you instant messaged? My best friend
67) Last place you went on holiday? California
68) Favorite regular drink?Water
69) Current crush? My husband
2) Are you a vegetarian?I’m slowly working towards it. We only eat meat about once a week, though.
3) Do you believe in Heaven? Of course!
4) Have you ever come close to dying? Came close to it during a surgery once about 5 years ago.
5) What jewelry do you wear? earrings, wedding rings, anniversary ring and a necklace every now and then
6) Favorite time of day? Morning
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?Of course.
8) Do you wear makeup? Only when I go out... and even then its very little.
9) Ever have plastic surgery? No, but I'm hoping for a boob job in a couple of years!
10) Do you color your hair? Just highlights now.
11) What do you wear to bed? It depends... if I'm going to workout in the morning then I wear my workout clothes to bed so that I am ready to hop on the treadmill when I wake up!
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? Not on purpose!
13) Can you roll your tongue?Not as well as I can roll my eyes…
14) Do You tweeze your eyebrows?I have them waxed.
15) What kind of sneakers? I'm not sure, but they work!
16) Do you still own vinyl? Yes! I have my days when I just sit back and listen to some old jazz records of my dads.
17) What is your hair color?It was black... but now its black with 5 different highlights in it.
18) Future child’s name? If we had another girl (which we wont because I cant have any more) her name would be Piper...
19) Do you snore? My husband says I do, but I don't believe him.
20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? Australia or New Zealand
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Only when one of my daughters accidentally leaves one in my bed.
22) If you won the lottery? I would buy a bigger house, pay off our debts and put the rest into a savings account so that my Husband could retire early!
23) Gold or silver?White gold.
24) Hamburger or hot dog?Are you trying to kill me? Fruit and vegetables!
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? chocolate, peanut butter and blueberry protein shake!
26) City, beach or country?Definitely country.... with beach as a close second
27) What was the last thing you touched? my keyboard
28) Where did you eat last? Green chilli burrito... mmmmmmm
29) When’s the last time you cried? Watching America's Got Talent...
30) Do you read blogs?Yes, lots of them!
31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? I usually do... wranglers, long sleeved shirt, boots and a baseball cap!
32) Ever been involved with the police?I dated a policeman once.
33) What’s your favorite shampoo, conditioner and soap? Aussie shampoo/conditioner and Ivory soap
34) Do you talk in your sleep? When I'm sick...
35) Ocean or pool? Pool
36) What’s your favorite song? You Are My Sunshine....
37) What is your favorite color(s)? Red
39 Ever met anyone famous? Madonna, Mr. T and Santana
40) Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life? I'm not rich or famous. I am not a brain surgeon and I haven't found the cure for cancer... but I'm a mother and a wife. Its all the success I need!
41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?Twirl
42) Ricki Lake or Oprah? Neither ....
\43)Basketball or Football?Neither... I'm a UFC fan.
44) How long do your showers last? I have two kids... I'm lucky to get all the soap out of my hair!
45) Automatic or do you drive a stick? I have one of each
46) Cake or ice cream? Pie
47) Are you self-conscious?Sometimes.
48) Have you ever drank so much you threw up? ... Oh yeah, the good ole days. Much of the reason I know longer drink!
49) Have you ever given money to a tramp? Uh, no.
50) Have you been in love? Madly
51) Where do you wish you were?Hanging with the gals at BlogHer.
52) Are you wearing socks? No, I'm a barefoot gal
53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Not as a patient, but I've driven one!
54) Can you tango? No, but I would love to learn
55) Last gift you received? A 1977 GMC truck!
56) Last sport you played? Tang Soo Do... (is martial arts considered a sport??)
57) Things you spend a lot of money on? Food
58) Where do you live? Arizona
59) Where were you born? In a hospital
60) Last wedding attended?My best friends... I was her bridesmaid
61) Favorite alcoholic drink? I no longer drink
62) What did you do last weekend? Went on a road trip
63) Most hated food(s)?Anything deep-fried, like French fries, or anything with artificial sweeteners
64) What’s your least favorite chore? folding laundry
65) Can you sing? Yes... at least the karaoke lady says I can!! LOL
66) Last person you instant messaged? My best friend
67) Last place you went on holiday? California
68) Favorite regular drink?Water
69) Current crush? My husband
Friday, July 24, 2009
Operation Fat Blaster
I've joined a new site that is incredible. My friend Michelle has started Operation Fat Blaster as a way to inspire us all to finish our goals (whatever they may be). You can either click on the name above or scroll down my sidebar and click on the red box! The more the merrier. I have already met some amazing women!
Today I am cleaning house and then off to band practice tonight to learn some new songs. For those of you who don't know, I play the drums for the Praise Band at my church. Being Baptist we can get pretty loud... and I love it. But being a female drummer, I get a lot of funny looks. Some are skeptical, some are admirable and some are just funny. There is an older gentleman at the church who is my biggest fan. Whenever I walk into any room he yells out 'WHOOHOOO DRUMMER GIRL'. It is really a great feeling. The best part of it is seeing the younger girls who see me play in church. I hope that by seeing me do something unexpected that it gives them the courage to try something new.
I get to take my new truck tonight to town.... and then I'm meeting some of the girls for drinks (for them) and water (for me) and dance to some good music! I'll try to remember to take some pics!
Today I am cleaning house and then off to band practice tonight to learn some new songs. For those of you who don't know, I play the drums for the Praise Band at my church. Being Baptist we can get pretty loud... and I love it. But being a female drummer, I get a lot of funny looks. Some are skeptical, some are admirable and some are just funny. There is an older gentleman at the church who is my biggest fan. Whenever I walk into any room he yells out 'WHOOHOOO DRUMMER GIRL'. It is really a great feeling. The best part of it is seeing the younger girls who see me play in church. I hope that by seeing me do something unexpected that it gives them the courage to try something new.
I get to take my new truck tonight to town.... and then I'm meeting some of the girls for drinks (for them) and water (for me) and dance to some good music! I'll try to remember to take some pics!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Sometimes I have to be happy just being me....
So far I am doing 'ok' with getting focused again. I cant say that I am back on the track I was on 2 weeks ago... but I am definitely going the right way. Today has flown by me and I don't have the time to write a long post, so I thought I would put a pretty picture up and remind myself that no matter if I fail or succeed... I'm still me.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Feeling comfortable with 'hungry'.
When your addicted to food there are some things you never get to experience. Like hunger. Eating all the time keeps you from feeling those grumbles that your stomach makes when it is empty. I know that those rare moments when I did feel hungry I would panic and eat the first thing I saw... subconsciously thinking I was going to starve to death if I didn't. At 225 lbs I did not look like a girl suffering from starvation.
Now I have learned that in order to lose weight I have to get comfortable with having a noisy tummy. No, I am not starving myself. I eat 3 well balanced meals a day.... 5-6 hours apart. Those 5-6 hours of not eating are the hardest hours of my day. In my head I am starving an hour or two after eating. My mind starts to search the kitchen for the next thing I can pop in my mouth. In reality, my body does not feel hungry again until an hour before it is time for my next meal. Usually making a noise here and there while preparing the food.
How do I make it 5-6 hours without food? I keep my 32 oz cup of ice water by me at all times. Chewing ice sometimes satisfies that urge to eat something. If its a sweet tooth I have, I chew some Extra gum. Before you know it those hours have flown by and its time to start making your next meal.
On my cheat day it really screwed with that balance. I had it down for two weeks.... one day messed the whole thing up. So, yesterday... not bad, but not good. Today I need to focus on getting that strength back between my mind and body.
Now I have learned that in order to lose weight I have to get comfortable with having a noisy tummy. No, I am not starving myself. I eat 3 well balanced meals a day.... 5-6 hours apart. Those 5-6 hours of not eating are the hardest hours of my day. In my head I am starving an hour or two after eating. My mind starts to search the kitchen for the next thing I can pop in my mouth. In reality, my body does not feel hungry again until an hour before it is time for my next meal. Usually making a noise here and there while preparing the food.
How do I make it 5-6 hours without food? I keep my 32 oz cup of ice water by me at all times. Chewing ice sometimes satisfies that urge to eat something. If its a sweet tooth I have, I chew some Extra gum. Before you know it those hours have flown by and its time to start making your next meal.
On my cheat day it really screwed with that balance. I had it down for two weeks.... one day messed the whole thing up. So, yesterday... not bad, but not good. Today I need to focus on getting that strength back between my mind and body.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Breath In, Scream Out...
Today is a new day... thank goodness. Yesterday was a bit of a flashback to the old days when food was to be eaten, not ignored. When calories were unheard of and comfort came in a box. I was eating things just because they looked good, not because I was hungry. My mind was ready to stick to the plan, but my hands betrayed me over and over.. stuffing one thing after another in my mouth.
Needless to say I spent the night regretting every little useless calorie that I had tasted. The worst part is that none of it tasted all that great. In fact, it was down right nasty.
So I gave myself a talking to last night and today I am ready to start this week with a bang. I am making of goal of seeing 181.9 by Monday's weigh in... which means getting pretty serious from here on out.
Needless to say I spent the night regretting every little useless calorie that I had tasted. The worst part is that none of it tasted all that great. In fact, it was down right nasty.
So I gave myself a talking to last night and today I am ready to start this week with a bang. I am making of goal of seeing 181.9 by Monday's weigh in... which means getting pretty serious from here on out.
Monday, July 20, 2009
It's my off week.
183
Today's weigh in shows a gain of +0.8 lbs. I'm not really surprised. I felt like I had an off day all week. At least its not a huge gain. I can handle it, and I'm going to make a better effort at losing another 2 lbs this week.
As for my weekend... it was a blast. I got my anniversary present from Hubby on Saturday....
Yes, a 1977 GMC Sierra 4X4. It doesn't look all that big.. but its HUGE. It has a lift on top of big honkin' tires. You can kind of see the step up that is attached to the bottom of the door so you can get up into it.
This, ladies, is what you get when you marry a cowboy redneck. I LOVE it!! The girls and I strapped in and went cruising around town. I got a kick out of being taller then everyone I pulled up next to.
As for my food. I did great until Sunday. I had a blueberry muffin at church... one of those huge store bought ones... a hamburger for lunch (with tator tots and a soda) and a green chilli burrito for dinner (which was homemade and not actually that bad for me). It was nice to have a bit of a cheat day.. but my stomach hates me now. Time to go back to fruits and veggies.
Hope you all had a great weekend and a great weigh in... I'm on my way to check!!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Do it like a monkey...
Abre uma banana como um macaco @ Yahoo! Video
I was amazed at this video! Just goes to show you, sometimes everyone IS doing it all wrong! LOL
I am sick today with a sore throat and grumbly stomach. Gonna spend the day relaxing. Have a great weekend and we'll see you all on Monday for weigh in!!
Its a Good Life.
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(Our wedding day)Today is my Anniversary. I have been married to the man of my dreams for 6 short years now. We were both talking last night and saying how fast the years have gone by. I guess when your busy with two kids, work, animals and life... well, it does fly!
Part of my anniversary present from Hubby was a girls night out last night! I went to the salon and got my nails done and then off to the local hot spot and watched my friend compete in the local Country Showdown. She is an awesome singer, but ended up in second place after an older gentleman that came with his guitar and sang his heart out.
I was good and stuck to drinking cranberry and club soda.. (2 of them come to about 280 cal.) and danced a lot! There were so many people that it must have been 100 degrees in there. I only stayed until 9 pm (yes, I'm getting too old to stay out past bedtime) and was home and in bed by 9:45. It was nice to get out and have fun with friends. I had a ton of compliments in my 'new' old skinny jeans!
Today I am going to do a massive clean house and make Hubby's favorite dinner of salmon, shrimp and rice. :)
Part of my anniversary present from Hubby was a girls night out last night! I went to the salon and got my nails done and then off to the local hot spot and watched my friend compete in the local Country Showdown. She is an awesome singer, but ended up in second place after an older gentleman that came with his guitar and sang his heart out.
I was good and stuck to drinking cranberry and club soda.. (2 of them come to about 280 cal.) and danced a lot! There were so many people that it must have been 100 degrees in there. I only stayed until 9 pm (yes, I'm getting too old to stay out past bedtime) and was home and in bed by 9:45. It was nice to get out and have fun with friends. I had a ton of compliments in my 'new' old skinny jeans!
Today I am going to do a massive clean house and make Hubby's favorite dinner of salmon, shrimp and rice. :) Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Proof of Pain
My 4 yr old got a camera for her birthday... *she rocks *... and got a pic of her Mommy after a hellish workout. So there, I have proof!!
Show me your proof!!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Reward Yourself
Nothing feels better then working towards, and obtaining, a certain goal. Really, what else could we ask for but finishing what we started out doing in the first place. I wish I was closer to finishing my journey... and in time I will be... but for now I can enjoy the here and now.
Anyway, Hubby reminded me of one of my goals that I was working towards and had somehow forgotten about. I am working towards having an amazing body, but mostly so I can put THIS on it!!
That's right.... Tiger Lily's!!! I love this tattoo and dream about it looking that good on me. Obviously this woman is in great shape and probably weighs 110 lbs... but here is my goal :
I have a half marathon coming up in January that I am super excited to run. It is 6 months away, which gives me time to drop at least 20 more lbs. IF I lose the weight and finish the half marathon I will reward myself with this tattoo! Talk about an awesome prize.
In other news... I wore a pair of my 'skinny jeans' all day yesterday with no pain, no numb legs and no red marks across my belly!! They are a size 14 in Juniors that I used to wear when I was 21... 10 years ago! Yes, that is how long I have stuffed these bad boys in the cold, dark corner of my closet. Now they are seeing the sunshine!!
Monday Weigh In...
182.2
That is a total of -2.2 lbs this week!!! YES!!
I will confess that I did not stay off the scale this weekend. Not only because I am madly in love with it and just can't keep my feet off of it, but because , with Hubby being home, I was eating a little differently and wanted to make sure it was still working for me. I actually saw a huge spike on Saturday morning (184) but my fingers were so bloated that my rings were way too tight. So I drank more then enough water and was back down to 182.4 by Sunday morning.
I think I am finally getting the hang of this whole thing. Jillian describes it best when she said "all pistons have to be firing at the same time".
I am finally eating the perfect number of calories, working out 4 days a week, drinking tons of water and , most importantly, staying away from temptation. I think the biggest thing is that I have not eaten ANY dairy products (including cheese, yogurt, ice cream... etc) or sugar products for two weeks. You don't know how much better I am feeling. My stomach is so happy with me. I guess I have finally made peace with being lactose intolerant.
I have to get off the computer and get my run in before life gets too hectic today.
A BIG shout out to Michelle who just finished her first triathlon!!!!!!!! You amaze me girl, what an inspiration.
That is a total of -2.2 lbs this week!!! YES!!
I will confess that I did not stay off the scale this weekend. Not only because I am madly in love with it and just can't keep my feet off of it, but because , with Hubby being home, I was eating a little differently and wanted to make sure it was still working for me. I actually saw a huge spike on Saturday morning (184) but my fingers were so bloated that my rings were way too tight. So I drank more then enough water and was back down to 182.4 by Sunday morning.
I think I am finally getting the hang of this whole thing. Jillian describes it best when she said "all pistons have to be firing at the same time".
I am finally eating the perfect number of calories, working out 4 days a week, drinking tons of water and , most importantly, staying away from temptation. I think the biggest thing is that I have not eaten ANY dairy products (including cheese, yogurt, ice cream... etc) or sugar products for two weeks. You don't know how much better I am feeling. My stomach is so happy with me. I guess I have finally made peace with being lactose intolerant.
I have to get off the computer and get my run in before life gets too hectic today.
A BIG shout out to Michelle who just finished her first triathlon!!!!!!!! You amaze me girl, what an inspiration.
Friday, July 10, 2009
There's a glitch in my head....
182.6
I keep expecting this to stop. I climb on the scale every morning thinking "I doubt it"... but then it happens. I lose a little bit more weight. The numbers keep getting lower and lower and it amazes me.
I think this is the longest period of time in which I've lost weight every single day. I'm a little amazed..... and a little scared. I think I may be having a little bit of an anxiety attack about weighing in under 180.
This isn't new. Usually when I am doing this well I end up feeling like this and then immediately do something to ruin it. It took me almost a year to get out of the 190's. I don't know if this time I am feeling anxiety about actually succeeding or if its more for the fear of self sabotage. All I know is that whatever I'm doing right now is working and I don't want it to stop. I WANT to reach my goal...
So, to keep the anxiety at bay... I'm only going to weigh myself on Monday's. I know this is working, I don't need to check my weight everyday. Maybe then I can sneak into the 170's without my mind freaking out.
I keep expecting this to stop. I climb on the scale every morning thinking "I doubt it"... but then it happens. I lose a little bit more weight. The numbers keep getting lower and lower and it amazes me.
I think this is the longest period of time in which I've lost weight every single day. I'm a little amazed..... and a little scared. I think I may be having a little bit of an anxiety attack about weighing in under 180.
This isn't new. Usually when I am doing this well I end up feeling like this and then immediately do something to ruin it. It took me almost a year to get out of the 190's. I don't know if this time I am feeling anxiety about actually succeeding or if its more for the fear of self sabotage. All I know is that whatever I'm doing right now is working and I don't want it to stop. I WANT to reach my goal...
So, to keep the anxiety at bay... I'm only going to weigh myself on Monday's. I know this is working, I don't need to check my weight everyday. Maybe then I can sneak into the 170's without my mind freaking out.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Be Proud of It
182.8
One of the things I have noticed the past couple of weeks is how good my food is looking on the plate. Even Hubby is 'wow'ing it every time I serve him. That isn't something that would happen when the food came out of a box... or from a To-Go bag. Now I'm using fresh veggies, fish, shrimp, chicken and beef. Each meal, to me, is a masterpiece.
Some of my goals in the kitchen:
Make it colorful! I put in a ton of veggies... and each one is a different color!!
Spice it up! Seasoning doesn't have calories.. get brave and start playing around with them. You'll be surprised.
Balance it out! Whatever your making... make sure its well balanced. Add some brown rice or whole grain noodles to give you your carbs!
Be proud of the food you put on your plate. Even if your the only one that is going to enjoy it.
I was AMAZED to see 182 this morning. I am so close to saying goodbye to the 180's forever... and hello to a whole new me!!
One of the things I have noticed the past couple of weeks is how good my food is looking on the plate. Even Hubby is 'wow'ing it every time I serve him. That isn't something that would happen when the food came out of a box... or from a To-Go bag. Now I'm using fresh veggies, fish, shrimp, chicken and beef. Each meal, to me, is a masterpiece.
Some of my goals in the kitchen:
Make it colorful! I put in a ton of veggies... and each one is a different color!!
Spice it up! Seasoning doesn't have calories.. get brave and start playing around with them. You'll be surprised.
Balance it out! Whatever your making... make sure its well balanced. Add some brown rice or whole grain noodles to give you your carbs!
Be proud of the food you put on your plate. Even if your the only one that is going to enjoy it.
I was AMAZED to see 182 this morning. I am so close to saying goodbye to the 180's forever... and hello to a whole new me!!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
God's Pharmacy
183.4
A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... And YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.
A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All o f the research shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food.
Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.
A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds on the nut are just like the neo-cortex. We now know walnuts help develop more than three (3) dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.
Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.
Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and many more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet, the body pulls it from the bones, thus making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.
Avocadoes, Eggplant and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats one avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight, and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this? It takes exactly nine (9) months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).
Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the mobility of male sperm and increase the numbers of Sperm as well to overcome male sterility.
Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.
Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries
Oranges, Grapefruits, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts..
Onions look like the body's cells. Today's research shows onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells. They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes. A working companion, Garlic, also helps eliminate waste materials and dangerous free radicals from the body.
Thanks for all the wonderful compliments yesterday. I don't know why I still hate myself in pictures. I guess I still see all the work that needs to be done. I can say that I look a h#** of a lot better then my before pic at 220 lbs!!
I got this in an email yesterday that I thought was a fantastic way of looking at food:
It's been said that God first separated the salt water from the fresh, made dry land, planted a garden, made animals and fish... All before making a human. He made and provided what we'd need before we were born. These are best & more powerful when eaten raw. We're such slow learners...God left us great clues as to what foods help what part of our body!
God's Pharmacy! Amazing!
God's Pharmacy! Amazing!
A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... And YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.
A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All o f the research shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food.
Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.
A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds on the nut are just like the neo-cortex. We now know walnuts help develop more than three (3) dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.
Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.
Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and many more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet, the body pulls it from the bones, thus making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.
Avocadoes, Eggplant and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats one avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight, and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this? It takes exactly nine (9) months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).
Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the mobility of male sperm and increase the numbers of Sperm as well to overcome male sterility. 
Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.
Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries
Oranges, Grapefruits, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts..
Onions look like the body's cells. Today's research shows onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells. They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes. A working companion, Garlic, also helps eliminate waste materials and dangerous free radicals from the body.Today I am officially at my lowest weight since all of this started. I hope to proclaim that everyday from now on!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
The much awaited... picture day.
One of my faithful readers (**ahem, MAC'N CHANGES**) thought it was time for me to have a picture day. I hate pics.. but the last time I updated my pics was a long time ago and it would be nice to start seeing the changes again. So I guess the 7th of every month will be my lucky picture day!! Here is a pic of me today after my workout and shower...
184.2 lbs ( 29.7 BMI)
July workout goals...
184.2
Sometimes its the little things I get excited about. Like being able to write down my exercise for the day. I came across a great blog yesterday where I was able to copy off this calender. It has a place to write in your goals for the month at the top... and then the rest is up to you! It comes in beautiful designs too (I just didn't have any color ink so had to use Plain Jane) This is hanging right next to my computer so I can see it every morning and get motivated! I want to make sure something is written in every day!
(in case you cant read my handwriting... this months goals are to do 31 miles (or a mile a day), 2600 crunches (100 a day), 135 perfect push ups (5 'manly' push ups a day) and 260 knee push ups ( 10 knee p/u's a day) and I just added 500 pull ups (20 pull ups a day). This is just what I want to accomplish every day on its own. It does not include extra workouts like P90X and Tae Bo!! )
This will be very handy next month when I start my training! I'll be able to keep track of how many miles I need to do every day!
My weight is consistently going down .2 lbs a day. Slow and steady is definitely the way to go.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Bonking... not as much fun as it sounds.
184.4
I decided to get a really good workout in on Friday. I hopped on the treadmill and ran 1.5 miles fast and hard. Then grabbed the new Fitness Rx magazine and started to do the Jackie Warner workout that was in it.(she ROCKS by the way) None of it was THAT hard.... but lately I've been eating 1200 calories a day and that is NOT enough to sustain me through a workout. I could not physically finish my workout.(I think some of you call this BONKING) I became dizzy and nausea's and just all together terrible. I ate some dinner and felt fine... but my lesson was learned. I need to watch my calories and make sure I'm getting enough.
As for my weight this morning I am down .4 lbs. I'm happy its going down! I'm still feeling good about my food choices and am not craving anything or feeling deprived of food. Whenever I do feel temptation start to come on I just try to picture my self at 179 lbs... you can't beat that motivation!!
I put a countdown on my blog. It lets me know how much time I have to lose as much weight as possible before I have to start training for my half marathon in January. (25 days X .2 lbs a day = 5 lbs) That's 179 baby!!
I have managed to stay away from sugar for an entire week now and I can feel the difference in my body. The funny thing is, I went grocery shopping and spent all my time in the produce department. It was like.. no, better... then being in a candy store. I bought fresh pineapple, mango's, cherries, watermelon, avocados......
Mmmmm, time for breakfast!!
I decided to get a really good workout in on Friday. I hopped on the treadmill and ran 1.5 miles fast and hard. Then grabbed the new Fitness Rx magazine and started to do the Jackie Warner workout that was in it.(she ROCKS by the way) None of it was THAT hard.... but lately I've been eating 1200 calories a day and that is NOT enough to sustain me through a workout. I could not physically finish my workout.(I think some of you call this BONKING) I became dizzy and nausea's and just all together terrible. I ate some dinner and felt fine... but my lesson was learned. I need to watch my calories and make sure I'm getting enough.
As for my weight this morning I am down .4 lbs. I'm happy its going down! I'm still feeling good about my food choices and am not craving anything or feeling deprived of food. Whenever I do feel temptation start to come on I just try to picture my self at 179 lbs... you can't beat that motivation!!
I put a countdown on my blog. It lets me know how much time I have to lose as much weight as possible before I have to start training for my half marathon in January. (25 days X .2 lbs a day = 5 lbs) That's 179 baby!!
I have managed to stay away from sugar for an entire week now and I can feel the difference in my body. The funny thing is, I went grocery shopping and spent all my time in the produce department. It was like.. no, better... then being in a candy store. I bought fresh pineapple, mango's, cherries, watermelon, avocados......
Mmmmm, time for breakfast!!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
Warning: muffin top ahead...
185
Yesterday afternoon I went into town to pick up some things from the store. On my way I stopped at this cute little retail store that I love. They had a pile of 'slightly used' jeans on sale for $5 in the entry way. I went through them and found pair after pair of really cute styles. Most of them size 5 and under. Then the lady came out and threw in a couple more... size 16. At first I was happy to see some jeans that looked more human then Barbie size.. but then I started wondering if she put them there after seeing me. Did I still look like a size 16 ??
I grabbed a pair that looked cute and carried them as I went browsing through the rest of the store. I couldn't stop thinking about holding a pair of size 16's again. Then it hit me. Why am I going to buy a size 16? It would be just as bad as buying a size 5! I don't wear a size 16 anymore. Not that they would fall off my hips, but they would definitely be baggy.
So I went back to the pile of jeans and threw them back. Then picked up a really cute pair of pants that were adorable... and a size 11. A size smaller then what I wear now. I grabbed them, paid and ran out of the store before putting myself through any more torture.
When I got home I pulled them out of the bag and dashed for the bathroom. Holding my breath I pulled them on, over my thighs... over my hips.. button, zip!! Voila... they were on. Tight, but on. They looked great, accept for the fat that hung over the sides a little. I expected it and was ok with it. The fact that they even closed excited me! I took some pics of me in them so that when I lose another 10 lbs I can compare the before and afters. (but I cant bring myself to post the pics until I have the afters!!)
I am excited to have a goal setting pair of pants.
My weight is up, but it is all water. My fingers were swollen this morning and thinking back I didn't drink my water yesterday and ate a salty dinner.. We will see what Monday brings! Have a wonderful weekend!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Its all about when and how much
184.8
So, what is finally working for me? A mix of things that I have done all along, just not all at the same time.
1) Eating 3 meals a day. I know that some of you do the 5 meal a day thing, but for me 3 is the key. I tend to eat too many calories when I add in those other meals. This way I can eat a little bit more for breakfast, lunch and dinner and not feel deprived the rest of the day.
2) Eat like a King for breakfast, a Duke for lunch and a poor man for dinner.... in other words, my breakfast carries more calories then my lunch or dinner. I make sure to load up on fruit, veggies and protein first thing in the morning. My lunch is a little bit less... and my dinner is usually something very light (or at least very small in portion).
3) Stop eating 3 hours before going to bed. This has been the hardest for me to do because I am used to snacking on things until I fall asleep. Lately I have had to learn to ignore my head and just be satisfied with a cup of tea or glass of lemonade.
So, if your are just starting your weight loss journey don't get discouraged. Its all about finding the things that work for you.
I have .8 lbs to lose before reaching an all time low for me... and I am super excited. We will see what the weekend holds for me... but I'm thinking along the lines of looking great in a pair of super tight wranglers!!
So, what is finally working for me? A mix of things that I have done all along, just not all at the same time.
1) Eating 3 meals a day. I know that some of you do the 5 meal a day thing, but for me 3 is the key. I tend to eat too many calories when I add in those other meals. This way I can eat a little bit more for breakfast, lunch and dinner and not feel deprived the rest of the day.
2) Eat like a King for breakfast, a Duke for lunch and a poor man for dinner.... in other words, my breakfast carries more calories then my lunch or dinner. I make sure to load up on fruit, veggies and protein first thing in the morning. My lunch is a little bit less... and my dinner is usually something very light (or at least very small in portion).
3) Stop eating 3 hours before going to bed. This has been the hardest for me to do because I am used to snacking on things until I fall asleep. Lately I have had to learn to ignore my head and just be satisfied with a cup of tea or glass of lemonade.
So, if your are just starting your weight loss journey don't get discouraged. Its all about finding the things that work for you.
I have .8 lbs to lose before reaching an all time low for me... and I am super excited. We will see what the weekend holds for me... but I'm thinking along the lines of looking great in a pair of super tight wranglers!!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Its all in the head....
185.2
There is a new diet fad that has hit my community. It called HGC. Apparently its a series of hormone shots. I'm not sure exactly what it does but I do know that for the first couple of weeks you only eat around 500 calories a day. Yikes! I'm not going to say anything negative about it... a couple of friends of mine are doing it through their doctors and have lost a significant amount of weight. They have done so well, in fact, that I was tempted to do it myself.
I thought about it for a couple of days before coming to the conclusion that no matter what pill, shot or magic potion I took.. I had to do this the right way. The fact is, no matter how hungry I'm NOT... I eat. I am addicted to food. So it doesn't matter that my stomach is not sending my brain hunger pains... it doesn't matter that I will feel full all the time...
A food addiction is all in the head. Its a mental hunger. You find comfort in food and go to it for every occasion. Happy, sad, mad, depressed, excited, lonely... you get the picture. So, my battle is not with my stomach, but with my head. If I'm going to lose this weight, its going to be with good old fashion mind control!! LOL
No loss today... but I'm holding strong.
There is a new diet fad that has hit my community. It called HGC. Apparently its a series of hormone shots. I'm not sure exactly what it does but I do know that for the first couple of weeks you only eat around 500 calories a day. Yikes! I'm not going to say anything negative about it... a couple of friends of mine are doing it through their doctors and have lost a significant amount of weight. They have done so well, in fact, that I was tempted to do it myself.
I thought about it for a couple of days before coming to the conclusion that no matter what pill, shot or magic potion I took.. I had to do this the right way. The fact is, no matter how hungry I'm NOT... I eat. I am addicted to food. So it doesn't matter that my stomach is not sending my brain hunger pains... it doesn't matter that I will feel full all the time...
A food addiction is all in the head. Its a mental hunger. You find comfort in food and go to it for every occasion. Happy, sad, mad, depressed, excited, lonely... you get the picture. So, my battle is not with my stomach, but with my head. If I'm going to lose this weight, its going to be with good old fashion mind control!! LOL
No loss today... but I'm holding strong.
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