Magic Numbers

185.2

I think its funny that when I am doing so well with my food and exercise the first thing I write on my post is my weight! For obvious reasons...

I hit a low of 184 three months ago... but then had some hard times and gained 5 lbs back. Now I am so close to being at that low again, and I am super excited. Not just to reach that number, but to pass it. I haven't seen the 170's in years... I'd say 10 yrs, actually. So to be able to wear the jeans I wore when I was 21, when I was going to clubs dancing and feeling sexy... well, that would be a huge motivator for me!

Yesterday I hopped on the treadmill wearing a sports bra that was way too tight and shorts that were ready to fall off. (My body seems to be moving around a bit...) I put on my music and started running. Why is this so great? Because it usually takes me a good 5 minutes of walking to be able to push my body to run. Yesterday I felt so good that I just ran... and ran... and ran. It was great.

The funny thing is, I did this before.... the LAST time I hit 185. It seems to be the magic 'running' number for me. The minute I get over that number my knees start hurting, my breathing is labored and I just cant run as well. Once under that number, I seem to be a marathon runner in the making. Too weird.

Its a very good thing though. I have about 6 weeks to lose as much as I can before my marathon training begins. So I better keep it up!!

I'm Baaa-aaack

185.4

After a crazy week, I am down 1.2 lbs. I am really hoping to be at 183 by this 4th of July weekend... and if possible, 179 by July 16th (my anniversary). At this rate is might just happen!

So this week was crazy, in every way. From Farrah Faucet, M.J. and Billy May dying... to a birthday party with 13 kids ages 1-6...

Lets start with the first one.. my friend summed up my feeling very well when she said 'we make too big of a deal with entertainers and not enough of people that should be icons'. I feel terrible that someone has died, but I don't think any one persons death should over shadow someone elses. Entertainers are people that are lucky enough to stroll through life doing what they love ... the rest of us fight, struggle and push through barriers to live the life we love. Call me crazy, but I don't think it's all that news worthy. I do pray for the families, for they still suffer a loss that is painfull....

Anyway, on to happier things ... this week my Baby turned 4 years old. Here are some pics of her special day!

(she is in the red dress on the bottom) This was after the pool and water slide!

Taking a swing at the pinata!!

It was a blast and I was oh-so-happy when it was all over with!

This morning I am hopping on the treadmill for a good 30 minutes and then spending the rest of the day finding my house in the midst of all this chaos!!

Sugar, Sugar everywhere.. but not a bite for me!

I have been working my butt off this week getting ready for my Babies birthday party on Saturday. She is going to be 4 years old. Usually we don't have huge parties.. but now that the girls are getting older and making lots of friends at Sunday School... we are having a big party!! 15 kids to be exact.

Because the weather is warming up (90 today) I decided it should be a water party. The kiddie pool will be filled, the sprinklers will be running and a water slide right down the middle of it all. On top of that we will do water balloon tosses, egg races and a pinata.

Of course what is a party without a cake... and as baby demanded.. she is getting a Barbie doll cake and 24 'ice cream' cupcakes.

With the candy for the pinata all around me, and the making of the cake and cupcakes coming up... I would normally be in heaven.. but I am actually some where in limbo. It isn't exactly torture to have all this around me and not be able to eat it... its just a little uncomfortable.

I just keep thinking how good I want to feel on Saturday for my little girls birthday party. I wouldn't dare mess up right now!

Because I will be so busy for the next couple of days.. I am going to take a break from blogging. I wont have much to talk about other then party plans anyway! So I will see you Monday with pics from the party and my wieght... hopefully at an all time low!!

Happy Father's Day

T G I F

186.6

A small gain due to the Chinese food for dinner last night. I know, I know.. its a no no... but I thought I did pretty good for eating out. I ordered from the lunch menu (smaller portion), I only ate half of what was on my plate and nothing more. I think the gain is just water held over from all the sodium.

I have a sore throat today. Probably from the change in weather. Its getting cooler at night and pretty warm during the day.... and the rains are coming! Put me in the mix and you get a sore throat.

This weekend is Father's Day and we are going to take Hubby to his favorite restaurant.. Red Lobster. This may not seem like much to you, but the nearest restaurant to us is 2 hours away.. which means a day trip to that city! I'm excited because it also means a walk around a MALL! It has been a year...maybe more.. since I've walked a mall. One for the downfalls of living in the country! LOL

The who, what, where, when and why's....

186.0

I am only 2 lbs away from my all time low... and 12 lbs away from my first goal weight!

Why am I suddenly doing so good? Well, mostly because I am scared to death to eat anything that might make me sick again. Cravings are strong... but then I remember how sick and scared I felt and I turn away from it. The thought that I might be hyperglycemic scares me.. because that means I am really close to becoming diabetic. If I can just stick to the food I've been eating all week, then I could turn it around and never be close again!

What am I eating? Eggs, veggies, tuna, chicken and fish. I was eating a lot of fruit, but that was because I was going through sugar withdrawals and needed a 'fix'. Fruit was the perfect answer, but now that I am feeling better I am backing off of it... fruit, after all, is still sugar!

Where am I headed? It would be silly of me to think that I can continue to lose a pound a day... at that rate I would hit my goal of 172 in two weeks. That would be AWESOME... but not practical. In all reality I really want to stay focused on me food. Losing the weight is just a bonus. The food I put in my mouth is more important then the number on the scale.

When do I expect to hit my goal? Eh, when it happens, it happens. Like I've always said, but am just now realizing... this is all about health and healthy living.

Who is with me?

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In other news:

My Day 1 pic for the Missouri 60 challenge!

Like pulling a rabbit out of a hat...

187.6

I have finally broken through the 188 barrier... not by much, but still!

Today is one of those days where you have a million things to do and just not enough *umph* to get started. Yesterdays goal was not met. Things just got a little twisted and the time that I thought I would have disappeared. Today I have a LOT of cleaning to do, plus band practice tonight at church. So I am not setting an exercise goal today... just a goal of finishing what I need to get done today!!

I am really watching what I eat since I am not working out as hard. I think that is why I am finally seeing a loss. I have until August to lose 20 lbs... and then I have to seriously start training for my half marathon in January. I'm excited to get started, but I know that unless I lose the weight I wont be able to run as far as I am hoping for.

Missing Pieces

I am doing a little better today. The nausea is gone... but my tummy is still a little upset. Just to clarify... I am NOT pregnant! I had a hysterectomy 3 years ago when I had a 5 lb ovarian tumor removed. Although lately I wonder if they left it in after all! LOL

Obviously it is keeping me from eating certain foods... like fried, fatty or sugar loaded. I am on my 4th day of clean eating. About the only things that don't upset my stomach is fruit, veggies and bread. Weird? or just really great for the diet!!

I am taking a ton of vitamins too. Water has been mixed with Crystal Lite, which isn't great, but it is helping me down the water! Exercise has been zilch. Other then my daily chores of cleaning up after a horse and two dogs... and two kids... I have not touched my treadmill or free weights. I usually take our mini horse for a walk every morning, but even that has been put on hold because of a mix of bad weather and kids.

My goal for today (because I don't dare to get ahead of myself) is to walk on my treadmill for 30 minutes today.

*Hanlie: I have been sick a lot, but going to the doctor means paying lots of money.. we have no insurance... so unless I am incapacitated, I just have to keep going. I did have all my blood work done 6 months ago with my oncologist and everything was fine.. so I'm not TOO worried. <3 *

Sorry for the wait... uh, weight??

Last Friday I had a doughnut.... or 3. That is all.

The rest of the day I was throwing up, feeling dizzy and just all around sick. This feeling stayed with me for most of the weekend. By Sunday I was feeling better, until I ate something... then it would all start again.

I'm afraid today has been the same. I just ate some strawberries and I am feeling a bit ill again. I think I have hyperglycemia. When I eat too much sugar my body crashes... I'm not sure if my body is still trying to balance out.. or if I have a bug. I'm hoping for a bug.

today's weight was 188.0... I've lost -.8. I'm okay with that.

sorry for the short and scattered post... see you tomorrow

Have you ever wanted a fresh start? Forget everything you've tried and failed... forget all the Day 1's.... forget all the oops's and tomorrow's... Just take what you know works and go with it.

Take a deep breath

This is my fresh start.

Day 10

You know its your fault that you are over weight when you purposefully eat things that you are allergic to. Even when you know the consequences are severe, you can't stop yourself. This was me yesterday. Like I have written on here several times before... I am lactose intolerant, and completely addicted to ice cream.

Yesterday I ate 2 cups of ice cream. Enjoyed every second of it. But 30 minutes later I was doubled over in pain. I was at the store and all I could do was concentrate on my breathing so I could just get out of there without too much attention. My abdomen was bloated and tight, there was a shooting pain on my side. Why do I do this to myself? Even as I was eating I was thinking (and hoping) about the pain that would soon follow. But the spoon kept on going. UGH!

Yesterday was a moment of weakness that I have definitely learned from. *(and was punished for) Today I feel fine and am going back to my fruit and veg diet. No carbs.Lots of juicing. At least for a week. My body needs the loving. I have 20 lbs to lose... its going to be done. No more stupidity!

Day 10 is going to rock!

Doing fine on Day 9

Woke up to a beautiful day. In a little bit I will be taking the girls to the park to get some energy out... and then come back and try to catch up with all the cleaning that I didn't do yesterday!

After that... a really good workout.

Run 20 minutes

P90X Chest and Back

I will leave you with a pic from last night. Hubby was promoted to brown belt in Tang Soo Do!!

Day 8... a little late.

Food was not 100% today, but I'm not going to worry too much about it. It was what it was. Time to move on.

I sent out the cd's today... so girls, keep your eyes open for your prize!

I am running on empty today. A messy house and two grumpy kids can really put me in a fowl mood. No workout..... :(

I'm in heaven... its day #7

and the winners are...... Michelle, Krissy and Hanlie!!!

I need you girls to email me an address where I can send you your new SkinnySongs cd!!

My weekend was great. I stuck to my food and exercise like a pro! Even Hubby patted me on the back when we picked up lunch on the way home from church. Mcdonalds for the kids and Hubby... and an extra stop at Subway for a veggie sub for me! Oh yeah, I rocked!

Today's workout:

20 min run
50 Hand walks (standing upright, go into forward bend, put hands on floor and walk out into a push up position & do 1 push up.)
100 sit ups

In the jive on day #5...

Did my 20 min run this morning and half of my P90X chest, shoulders and tris. Half because it is Saturday and with a full house it is very hard to concentrate on working out. Oh well, at least I got a good sweat in!

Today is your last chance to leave a comment and get entered into my SkinnySongs CD give-away! I will post the winners on Monday morning.

Have a great weekend.

And there's more.... day #4

I haven't slept this well in weeks. The minute my head hits the pillow I am out.... and no bad dreams! The only bad thing is waking up at 4:30 in the morning having to pee.... but that is the side affect to drinking lots of water I guess.

Yesterdays workout was great. I ran 1.5 miles in 20 minutes and then continued on to P90X shoulders and arms. Today is an off day. I will be focusing on my food and maybe get a good stretch in. If you haven't noticed, I am doing an on a day, off a day routine with P90X. I am hoping that by switching up my workouts (i.e. P90X, running, bicycling, Tae Bo and challenges) that it will keep me motivated and excited about my days.

I don't have a lot of active things planned this weekend. In fact, it looks like rain again, but I will consciously try to add some physically fun stuff for all of us to do!! If it goes well I will see you on Day 7!!! (you'll see me if it doesn't go well too... just not as happy)

Can it be? Day 3!

Another perfect day behind me. 100% on food and one awesome workout.

If you have Facebook, I recommend you add Bob Harper to your friends. He puts up a physical challenge every morning. Yesterdays challenge was to do 10 sets of 30 second push-carts. (this is when you get on your treadmill and, without turning it on, try to walk) If it weren't for this challenge yesterday, I would probably have passed up working out. This just sounded like to much fun. Here is what I ended up doing:

30 sec Push cart
30 jumping jacks
30 sec Push cart
30 knee lifts
30 sec Push cart
40 crunches
30 sec Push cart
30 squats
30 sec Push cart
30 sec waist twist
repeat!

20 min of Tae Bo Amped

Today is another 20 min run with P90X Shoulders and Arms!

Running Muscles

It has been two weeks since my last confession....**oops** I mean run! That terrible streak ended yesterday with a 20 min run on the tready. Let me tell you, it hurt. The muscles in my legs screamed at me after the first lap.... My body felt like a classic car trying to be started after 20 years of sitting in a garage. I was coughing and sputtering, wheezing and whimpering. BUT... I finished with that glorious feeling of triumph. I was drenched from head to toe in sweat and I felt oh-so good!

So good that I continued to do my P90X Chest and Back, a medicine ball routine and some extra sit ups for good measure.

Now I am freakin' sore. In a very good way. I'm back baby! I was 100% on food yesterday, my workout rocked and today is not going to be any different. I took those pics that I promised and let me just say ewwwwwwwwww! I haven't done before and after pics in over a year, and it shows. I can definitely see a lot of areas that need some attention.. like my back, arms and tummy! So, I hate putting this pics on here, but it is good for me to have an idea of what my body looks like now so that I can change it to what I want it to look like in my 'later' pics.

NOW

Update: Mom lost 5 lbs at her WW weigh in last night! She has 17 lbs to go before reaching her goal weight. GO MOM!!!!

Glamour Muscles....

This morning I realized that there is only one month to go before the 4th of July. Why is this a big deal for me? Because the 4th of July starts a month full of family events. Rodeos, BBQ's, Anniversary.... etc. Every year I try to look good for this month, and this year is no different. So, my number one priority is to get back on track with my workouts. I especially need to work my chest, back and shoulders... you know, the parts of the body that really show in a tank top!

The best workout for these muscles? Well, being a P90Xer I have to say there are two:

Chest and Back - consists mainly of push-ups and pull-ups
Shoulders and Arms - alternates between shoulders, biceps and triceps

I know that this is something I am constantly doing; picking an event or date that I want to look good for... and it really isn't a good thing because I should be sticking to a constant. At the same time I have to say that at least I am constantly wanting to look good!

So today I am going to take some 'Now' pictures and will post them tomorrow.... on July 3rd we will see what the 'Later' pics show.

UPDATE: Hubby came back from the Dr. with painkillers and an antibiotic. Doc thinks he has a bacterial infection behind the right ear (where there is an unexplained lump). Hubby goes back tomorrow for a follow up to see if the meds are working. Keep praying!

(Mom goes to WW tonight for her first weigh in... that will be revealed tomorrow too!)

June 1st

Monday came fast.... and here it is almost 3 in the afternoon before writing my blog.

My mom has decided to get healthy too. She joined Weight Watchers last Tuesday. She has her first weigh in tomorrow night and I am so excited for her. She thinks she has lost 5 pounds... we shall see!

I'm sorry that this entry is all over the place. Right now I am waiting for a call from Hubby. He has had one headache.... that has lasted for 6 days. After pleading and persuading, he finally gave in and is at the doctors office right now. I don't know what can cause a non-stop headache, but I'm praying its nothing serious.