Day 54

I'm going crazy. I WANT to workout so badly... but my body just can't kick this stupid cold/cough. This morning I  have a sore throat. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Plan of attack today:

Bite and Write

Lots of Water

I know in all reality I won't be able to push myself to workout until next week. Bummer.

I'm back to knitting. Its almost Christmas and I have a 4 new babies in the family to knit for. The best thing about knitting is it keeps my hands too busy to stuff food in my mouth. :)

Day 53

Weigh in.. Its time to see the damage. One week of being sick, eating less then perfect and zero calories burned = 182.4 lbs.

Believe it or not, I'm ok with this. It was expected. BUT... I have a plan in place and it goes into action today. My plan is this:

Workouts:

4:30 a.m.: 2 mile run
5:00 a.m:  1 hour P90X
6:00 p.m: 3 mile run

Food:

Bite and Write
As clean as possible.

Water:

I have a gallon jug in the fridge.

OK, so I am still sick and have no intention of working out yet... but I can start with my food and water. I have a pen and pad on the counter so that everything I walk out of the kitchen with gets written down. I can't be serious about getting in shape without getting serious about my nutrition. To be honest, I think thats why I am sick right now. I havent been eating my fruits and vegetables like I used to.

I need some short term goals. My first one is to be at 172 by October 31st. That is 10 lbs in a little over a month. I feel comfortable with that. I also like the idea of being back down to that number.

Hubby is ready to do this with me. Of course, he is on the other side of this struggle. He wants to be healthy and in shape. His goal is to GAIN 25 lbs of muscle at the end of all of this.  We will both be doing the P90X for 90 days.

Because of money I will not be joining the boxing gym down the street... but I figure if I am serious enough about having the body of a fighter... then I can train myself. So I did a little research and came up with my workout.  Six days a week. More cardio right now to drop the weight. Morning and evening workouts.

Its going to mean a lot of dedication, but I'm ready to do it. I need to do it.

Day 50

The half way point and I'm afraid I'm not doing so great.

My cold has gone into my chest and I am coughing like mad... on top of that, I sound like an old lady that smokes 5 packs a day with her whiskey. So, no, I have not been working out... or eating right. I HAVE been drinking a ton of tea... so at least my water intake is good!

Tomorrow is my boxing class and if this cough isn't a whole lot better... I can't go. This makes me really sad... I'm ready to start training for fighting (at least the voice in my head says she's ready) ... but I have to wait until this body is at least 95% healthy.

Day 49

I'm sitting on my couch feeling icky. My head is throbbing, my ears are popping, my throat is sore, my voice has dropped two octaves and now I feel a cough coming on.... but I'm planning my come back.

One of my dreams in this world is to have the body of a fighter. Who doesn't want to look like Gina Cerano??

My Hubby seems to think I need to get serious and start training to be a fighter. With my background in Tae Kwon Do, Tang Su Do, Jiu Jitsu and boxing... its not that far of a stretch.... but it would mean a HUGE commitment on my side.

So what brought this on?  The bag class I took at a gym down the street on Saturday morning was AWESOME. I loved it. The teacher is a boxing coach to 3 UFC fighters. One of the girls in there is 22 years old and a Golden Glove Champion in boxing. The first thing you see when you walk in the door is a floor mat and a boxing ring. People (in ah-may-zing shape) are all over the place fighting, training, sweating.  It made me want to jump in and join the fun. The bag class was on hour of boxing. It had me sweating up a storm. At one point I was just focusing on not throwing up. Call me crazy, but that is the kind of workout I LOVE. It means I'm pushing myself.

If I get serious about fighting then there is a lot that would need to change. Food, exercise, routine, workouts.... in other words I have to go from just focusing on a weight goal ... to focusing on a fitness goal.

Just thinking about it right now makes me exhausted.... but excited. I have one more 'free' class at the gym before I have to make a decision on joining or not. As soon as I'm over this cold...

Day 48

Still sick.

My cold has moved from my sinuses to my ears and throat. Every time I swallow, my ears pop. Ugh, I hate being sick.

Anyway, I am back to the couch. I read a whole book yesterday! Its been awhile since I've done that. The book , Ill Wind , was a great read. Its the first in a series. I'm gonna try and read the second book today!

I'm laying down........

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 47

Today I am surrounded by tissues, hot tea and good books. My nose is stuffy and my head is hurting. I managed to get my to-do list done this morning so that I could just relax the rest of the day. My question is... do I feed my cold???

I'll start with some soup. :)

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 46

181.4
I'm  SORE
Hungry.... really hungry

Spent the weekend working every muscle in my body. First with a boxing class... one hour on the bag, kicking and punching. Then a fun day of playing on the lake... riding on a tube being pulled by a boat!!

This morning I got up early and met a friend of mine at the "Y". We did a 1 hour spin class... (my butt is killing me) and a 1 hour abs class. On top of the extreme soreness I have from the boxing class... I will now be having a whole lot of leg pain... but it feels good... makes me feel... alive!!

Tomorrow is a rest day... Today, I need to focus on eating well and drinking tons of water.

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 43

WT: ???
Feeling: TGIF
Where is my head?: In the game!

Its Friday, and right now I am reminding myself that just because I get a break from everything else during the weekend... I can't take a break from my diet. In fact, the weekend is the time that I can make the biggest difference. With Hubby being home I am able to leave the kids with him and go DO something. Hiking, biking, gym... all the stuff I can't do during the week. So, if I can stay motivated... eat right... drink water.. then I can also get in some awesome calorie burning and have a loss on the scale on Monday morning. Sounds like a good plan right? Now to see it happen!

Woke up this morning and did another Jillian Michael workout... this one was Exercise On Demand's Boost Metabolism. It was a great workout and I really enjoyed doing it. I'm finding that working out every OTHER day is very helpful. I don't feel worn out... and when I don't feel like doing it I just remind myself that tomorrow is a day off!

Weigh in on Mondays from now on. Yes, I will be hiding my scale from myself. This may mean going a little crazy for the next couple of days... I don't even want to think about doing it for a whole WEEK... but I think that  just focusing on doing everything right, without a number in the back of my head, will help me. We'll give it a try.

:)

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 42

Wt: 178.4
Feeling ? : tired
Where's my head? : In the game baby!!!

I went out last night for a girls night. We went to a karaoke bar. I learned two things.. First, karaoke is not the same on the east coast as it is on the west coast. It could have just been that bar.. but I was not getting into it. Second, I'm getting too old for bars. I really have a hard time putting up with people in general... add alcohol to that mix and I spend most of the night rolling my eyes and trying to ignore people.

Anyway, I was home by midnight and , of course, the kids woke up super early this morning... so I am exhausted today. I dont see a whole lot getting done today.

So, I got all dressed up.. had makeup on... and didn't take one picture. I know... CRAZY!  But I did take one for you this morning..

I couldn't believe that the scale said 178 this morning. Its a rest day, so no sweating... but I'm definitely sticking to the food and water!

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 41

Sometimes you need to look over your shoulder and take a look at where you started. If you are a blogger, then you have it made. Everything has been documented... from day 1 to day 13987. Including pictures.

I needed a little inspiration last night... so I took a look at my old blog and read the first month or so of my journey. It included these pictures:

Its funny how your forget. I knew I was overweight, but I had forgotten what it looked like. Maybe because my idea of overweight is what I look like now. But looking back at where I started, it gave me a new look at how far I've come and how good I'm doing. How far have I come?

I may not be where I want to be ... yet.... but I am definitely going in the right direction.

Woke up this morning and did Jillian Michaels Day 1 of her 30 Day Shred. It was on Exercise On Demand... and I have to say I really liked it. I might have to get the other 29 days!

Feeling good today. :)

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 40

WT: ???
FEELING: Sore
Where's My Head?: Eh...

Ok, so all day yesterday I suffered from some weird flu bug. I would get extremely cold and then minutes later be drenched in sweat. Kind of like some hot flash from hell... but with it were some excruciating stomach cramps and dry heaving.

This morning I am sore. I'm not sure it its from my run yesterday morning... or from the dry heaving. Either way, my muscles are hurting. I'll be drinking tons of water again today. I didn't go for a run today, figuring I needed the rest way more. If I get to feeling better today I might do a workout video tomorrow morning... or maybe just a walk.

Speaking of videos... I am way overdue for a review of this one!

Lynn Hahn is an amazing woman. Having struggled with a food disorder herself, she understands the need for a good workout DVD that makes you focus on a healthy body.  This one was awesome. Simple cardio moves to keep the heart rate up... with toning moves in between. She also has  kickboxing, boxing and bands workouts that I want to try too. You can buy her workouts on Amazon... or check out her web page!!  Definitely a good workout to put into the mix!

I feel better today, just a little drained. It may be another day of laying on the couch and drinking tea. If that's what my body needs... so be it.

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 39

Wt: ???
Feeling: headache from hell
Where is my head: Surprisingly... very positive. 

My weekend was full of ups and downs... both physically and mentally.

This morning Hubby woke me up at 4:30 a.m. I laid in bed for 15 minutes wondering if I was actually going to do this, before finally deciding that if I didn't try it would be a waste of a perfectly good morning. So I hopped up, put on my running clothes and shoes and ran out the door.

One of the coolest things about where we moved to is that we live in one HUGE circle.... with a sidewalk and street lights every 50 feet. It felt like my own, personal running track. I went to MapMyRun and figured out that 3 times around is exactly one mile!

So, I got in a run. Mentally, I feel a little better. Physically, my head still hurts.

Gonna drink lots of water today.

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 36

WT: 181
FEELING: Icky
WHERE IS MY HEAD: I want a big stack of pancakes for breakfast, but I'll settle for a glass of cucumber, carrot and celery juice with a side of oatmeal. :)

I had a great comment yesterday:

So you're just trying to reach goal in this 100 day? Or are you looking to live/eat this way the rest of your life? You can certainly reach goal, but, whether or not you stay there is the real challenge of this 100 day isn't it? 

I for one, think you look great since you first started. I don't care what the scale is telling you and why you're allowing this piece of equipment to tell you how well you've done. 

Look at theses pictures. You look amazing. Stop beating yourself up on numbers. Each time you weigh yourself, it could be a day you are bloated then the next day, you could lose like 2 lbs. So which day should you really count?? LOL 

I think you should base the rest of this journey on inches. 
Because I know, you can be 181 and still end up with a size 12 or 10 waistline. So, what does that tell you?

The goal of this 100 day challenge is to finally lose the weight. I have been struggling on this journey for over 4 years now. 4 YEARS. Now, I know that this will be a lifelong thing.... but right now I am focused on getting to my goal weight. After that I will focus on maintaining...  I already know that there will never be a time that I can let my guard down. Eating healthy will always be a challenge for me. I am addicted to food... just like an addiction to drugs or alcohol... it is never gone. You see, I was actually very happy at 173 lbs. So happy that I quit worrying about the scale. I thought I was doing fine. In a month I gained 8 lbs.  If I don't see it as a challenge then I just let it go... and in less then 6 months I could gain it all back.

If I dont reach my goal weight by the end? No harm done. My journey will continue. This 'challenge' may be over on the 100th day... but the true challenge will continue on, until the day I die.

Thank you for the compliments on the pictures. I do see how good I look now.... 50 lbs lighter then I was at my heaviest.... but for me, its not enough. I want to see myself in the best shape of my life. I want to see myself in the shape and weight that this body was meant to be.  I have been heavy my whole life... I want to finally see what the real me is supposed to look like.

The number on the scale does have me trapped. It is what I gauge my day on. If I am seeing a low number, then I feel strong and know that I am on the right track... if I see a high number then I get determined to do better. It sounds crazy.. and maybe it is... but for me, its how I survive.

Right now I am in a size 12 pants. Yes, it is a perfectly wonderful size to wear... but I want to know if I can wear a size 9... or a size 6... or maybe, just maybe a size 4.

I'm not looking to be rail thin and sickly. I am doing this the healthiest way I know possible. I am eating the right foods and working out to strengthen my body. Having already faced cancer once, my fear is that if I should get sick again, would I have the right tools to fight it again?  A healthy body and a strong mind.

Some of this may sound crazy. You may think I've got it all wrong. To tell you the truth I already know that the way I think of food is wrong... but I'm trying to rewire my brain from years and years of bad food. I may look great now... but I want to look better.  I may be obsessed with the numbers.... but that is my way of dealing with it.

This is not meant to be an argument... if anything I just wanted to explain my way of thinking a little more. I appreciate all the comments that have been left on here and I want to thank all of you who have been reading and following along.... (Lucas, I would love to follow along on your 100 day challenge!!!) ....

As for today, its back to juicing, water, protein (solids, not shakes) and working out~ Have a great day :)

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 35

WT: 181.6
FEELING: Bloated and dehydrated.
WHERE IS MY HEAD: I'm ready to show ya'll what I can do in 100  65 Days!!!

I'm a little annoyed at myself for all the days I've wasted. My idea at challenging myself to 100 days was to see a HUGE change. Instead it looks like I am doing what I've always done... wait until the very last second and then lose it. Well, I still have 65 days to show you all (and myself) that I can reach my goal weight... NOW.

Lets do a little math:


181.6 (todays wt) - 155 (goal wt) = 26.6 lbs / 65 days = 0.4 lbs a day

If I can lose .4 lbs a day... or 2.8 lbs a week... then I will reach goal on my 100th day!

Alright ya'll. No more pussy footin' around. Lets get this thing going. I'm starting today with a little detox. Lots of juicing and veggies. Breakfast will be a celery, cucumber and carrot drink!!

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 34

This is when life gets in the way... or at least tries to knock you for a loop.

So, for the last year or so we have noticed that my older daughters little quirks are becoming more and more pronounced. Home schooling my kids has also allowed me to see them in a different light. This being said, my daughter has been diagnosed with  Asperger's Syndrome. A milder case of Autism.

When I think about it, it really doesn't bother me. At all. I worry that she will have a little more to deal with... but other then that,  it is just a matter of working a little more with her. I am heading to the library today to do a little more research and see if there is anything I can do to make math a little easier for her. Her strong point is reading. She can read at a 2nd grade level (she is in first grade) but suffers when it comes to simple math problems.

Anyway, this has affected my food. Not for any other reason then I have an excuse to eat like crap. Seriously. I am not stressed out about it. I am not depressed about it. I just have something going on in my life that I could use as an excuse to eat all the cookies in the house. So I did.

Crap.

Now that I have admitted that... lets hope the rest of the day goes better.

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 33

I still feel a little weak from fighting off the bug this weekend... but I managed to get up this morning and do a little workout.

I went grocery shopping this weekend and got plenty of fruit and vegetables. I am excited to get back to my shakes for breakfast and my stir fry veggies and soups for lunches!

Its back to the grind after a long weekend, so I'm afraid this post will be short.

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 32

Wt: 178.6

Spent the weekend fighting off the flu. I am feeling much better today and even did a workout with my Hubby. 50 pull-ups and 100 push-ups done!! Pictures tomorrow!!

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 29

Wt: 178.6

A rest day seems to have been needed. I dropped a ton of water weight in one day. Love, love, love it!!

Although today is a scheduled workout day, my toothache is back with a vengeance. I tried to workout out, but with every jump and step my tooth throbbed. So, I took some aspirin and will watch my food once again. Lots of water... and most likely I will be eating soup for lunch and dinner.

I can't find my camera anywhere. As soon as I do I will post my progress picture.

Yay for being back in the 170's!!!!

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 28

You know your day is going to be bad when you wake up to two dead goldfish. Apparently I am not the only one here who thinks the tap water is disgusting. We had to empty half the water out of the tank yesterday to get it from my sisters house to our house. Mind you, we're talking about a little 2 gallon tank that holds two little goldfish. When we got home I filled up the tank with tap water... not remembering we not longer have the cleanest water in the world anymore. Needless to say, I had to take the girls to the pet store first thing this morning to buy them new fish.... and the droplets you apparently have to put in the tank here in order to clear the water. This makes me wonder, if its not safe for fish... is it safe for me? Granted I am not a tiny little 1 oz fish... but still. Its gotta add up.

Anyway, that was the start of my day. Since then I have had a toothache from H-E-double hockey sticks... but our dental insurance doesn't kick in for another 6 weeks. :(   My neighbor found a deadly snake on her back porch and said it was headed our way... and the kids have needed a referee more then once.

If anything, it has helped with the food. I've had a protein shake for breakfast.... a bowl of spaghetti for lunch... and a cup of tea. Since I'm not feeling great I figured it was a perfect day for a rest day.

Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow.

What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 27

WT: 182  (oh, this is killing me)

Here I am after a 20 minute Core workout. The picture doesn't show the sweat dripping... but trust me, it was!

I had a pretty good day yesterday with food. I think where I messed up was water. I need to drink WAY MORE WATER! I did buy a Britta water filter so that I can drink the water here. I guess I got spoiled living out in the country with well water. City water is nasty... but its water and I need to drink A LOT of it.

My amazing, awesome, sweet, thoughtful, loving sister (yes, she reads my blog, but she really IS all those things) got me an electric tea pot that I am in love with. It makes the perfect cup of tea! It also only takes 2 minutes... which means less time for me to look in the cupboards while I'm waiting. :)

I know my weight is up today for a reason. My leg workout yesterday has my legs SO sore. They have to be swollen with water... lets hope.  Anyway, as sad as I am that I'm in the 180's again... I AM in the mindset to get out of it fast... so here is to a good day today.