I'm taking a break from blogging. Four years is a long time to be battling my weight and blogging about it at the same time.
I feel like the last year has had me going around in circles and to be honest with you, I'm tired of writing the same crap over and over again. My 100 day challenge was kind of a test for me... and it just proved that I am in a rut. I don't thing writing about it will work this time.
I'm not giving up on my goal to lose the weight... but I am going to let go of my blog for awhile.
I want to do this by myself for a little while....
Monday, November 8, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Day 92
182.2
Not a bad gain for two weeks of eating like crap, getting sick and not working out.
I am still sick. I've been up two nights in a row coughing. I'm taking my Emergen-C and drinking tons of water. I have to be better by this weekend. I start my new job on Sunday. I'll be working 30-40 hours at the local bookstore. There is a part of me that is excited to go back to work.... but there is also that part of me that will miss dinners and weekends with my family. It will all be worth it if we are able to save enough money to move back home.
I'm also 3/4 of the way thru the process of being able to work from home... which would be awesome. I'm hoping it will only take another couple of weeks....
As for my food, well, my mom left yesterday. My kitchen is empty, so I am going grocery shopping today. With this cold, my appetite is gone... so it should be easy to stick to healthy food only. Because I am working nights I will have to get creative about dinners. Hubby can't cook...and he won't want to after working all day... so there will be lots of pre-cooked or crockpot dinners.
I asked for Mondays and Wednesdays off so that I can go to my boxing classes. Hopefully this cold will be gone by then.
I'm focusing on 5 lbs at a time. Next goal is to be reached in two weeks....
11/19/10 - 177 lbs
:)
Not a bad gain for two weeks of eating like crap, getting sick and not working out.
I am still sick. I've been up two nights in a row coughing. I'm taking my Emergen-C and drinking tons of water. I have to be better by this weekend. I start my new job on Sunday. I'll be working 30-40 hours at the local bookstore. There is a part of me that is excited to go back to work.... but there is also that part of me that will miss dinners and weekends with my family. It will all be worth it if we are able to save enough money to move back home.
I'm also 3/4 of the way thru the process of being able to work from home... which would be awesome. I'm hoping it will only take another couple of weeks....
As for my food, well, my mom left yesterday. My kitchen is empty, so I am going grocery shopping today. With this cold, my appetite is gone... so it should be easy to stick to healthy food only. Because I am working nights I will have to get creative about dinners. Hubby can't cook...and he won't want to after working all day... so there will be lots of pre-cooked or crockpot dinners.
I asked for Mondays and Wednesdays off so that I can go to my boxing classes. Hopefully this cold will be gone by then.
I'm focusing on 5 lbs at a time. Next goal is to be reached in two weeks....
11/19/10 - 177 lbs
:)
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Day ??
Its been a rough week. As much as I have wanted to stay on track... it didn't happen. As much as I have tried to take this one day at a time... it has all just bum rushed me. Life sucks sometimes, and the way I handle it is to ignore 'me' and focus on whats going on around me.
My mom has been here for 13 days... we have eaten out at least once, if not twice a day.
I have managed to get the flu... again. Sinus infection, cough, sore throat.
Halloween... 'nuff said. There is enough candy in the house to stock a Willy Wonka Factory.
For more then one reason Hubby and I are ready to pack up and move back (across the country) to Arizona. Which means I am going back to work. I've had 3 job offers this week and I have to pick one... soon.
All of this has done one thing.... stressed me out. Which means I've eaten like crap... which means I've eaten most of the candy in the house... and ordered the worst thing on the menu.
Yep...
I'm sending out an SOS.
My mom has been here for 13 days... we have eaten out at least once, if not twice a day.
I have managed to get the flu... again. Sinus infection, cough, sore throat.
Halloween... 'nuff said. There is enough candy in the house to stock a Willy Wonka Factory.
For more then one reason Hubby and I are ready to pack up and move back (across the country) to Arizona. Which means I am going back to work. I've had 3 job offers this week and I have to pick one... soon.
All of this has done one thing.... stressed me out. Which means I've eaten like crap... which means I've eaten most of the candy in the house... and ordered the worst thing on the menu.
Yep...
I'm sending out an SOS.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Have a Happy Halloween!!
Just Kidding!!! I didn't eat all of it... just a couple!
See ya'll on Monday for Weigh In Day!!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Day 83
WT: 181.8
- 1.8 lbs
Sorry for the lack of posts, but Momma has me running around like crazy. Museums, shopping, skating, parks.... and dentists. (I had a terrible tooth ache yesterday)
I am going to my boxing classes.... and still loving it.... and am trying to make good food choices. I'm holding steady!
- 1.8 lbs
I am going to my boxing classes.... and still loving it.... and am trying to make good food choices. I'm holding steady!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Day 78
I'm sorry for the lack of posts, but sometimes I just don't have anything to say. I've had a good week so far. I did my boxing class mon, tue and wed. My food has been written down and double checked. I did good up until yesterday... so I will consider yesterday my 'cheat' day and just move on.
My mom is arriving today!!! I am so excited. We have all been dealing with a little homesickness lately. I'm not sure if her being here is going to make it better or worse... .but I will definitely enjoy her company while she is here! This is not the first time I've lived 2,000 miles away from her... but this time it seems to be so much harder. Having the kids always wanting to see her or talk to her can be a little overwhelming. Not being able to just drive to her house when I need a talk is even harder. I am finding that its the very little things I am missing the most back home. Even Hubby has been calling his family a little more often every week. We've been in North Carolina for almost 6 months now... but I don't think we are going to last too much longer. I hate to say it but I think it took us moving 2,198 miles away to figure out where exactly we are supposed to be.
I am in no rush to pack up the house again and move. But I think eventually we will try to get back to Arizona.
In the mean time I will enjoy my sister and her husband.... my new friends.... and go exploring new territory. I will continue to focus on my food and my workouts and I will take full advantage of my boxing classes while I can....
My mom is arriving today!!! I am so excited. We have all been dealing with a little homesickness lately. I'm not sure if her being here is going to make it better or worse... .but I will definitely enjoy her company while she is here! This is not the first time I've lived 2,000 miles away from her... but this time it seems to be so much harder. Having the kids always wanting to see her or talk to her can be a little overwhelming. Not being able to just drive to her house when I need a talk is even harder. I am finding that its the very little things I am missing the most back home. Even Hubby has been calling his family a little more often every week. We've been in North Carolina for almost 6 months now... but I don't think we are going to last too much longer. I hate to say it but I think it took us moving 2,198 miles away to figure out where exactly we are supposed to be.
I am in no rush to pack up the house again and move. But I think eventually we will try to get back to Arizona.
In the mean time I will enjoy my sister and her husband.... my new friends.... and go exploring new territory. I will continue to focus on my food and my workouts and I will take full advantage of my boxing classes while I can....
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Day 75... To be a fighter you have to live like a fighter.
Hanging around the gym I have rubbed elbows with a lot of professional fighters. The way they train for hours a day is amazing... and inspirational. What shocked me was what they do outside of the gym. Their training does not stop at the door on the way out. Which might be my problem.
I had an 'Ah-Ha' moment last night after my boxing class. I was washing my hands after class like I always do (because the smell that comes out of those boxing gloves are disgusting and I can't go a second longer after taking them off to wash my hands) and overheard a conversation between two of the pro lady fighters. It was about nutrition. One was giving advice to the other. The other took out her notebook and started pointing to what I later discovered was her food journal. You see, even though she has the perfect body and looks amazing.. .she, too, has to track every piece of food. Her training carries out into the parking lot, into her car and followers her for the rest of the day.
Not only do they push themselves for hours a day in the gym.... but they stay strong and in training for every second of the day. This blew my mind... and in some ways shattered my dream of reaching goal and then being able to just let it all go. (come on now, you know that was your dream too)
I'm not really sure what I expected a fighters life to be like... but my guess was they worked out hours a day in the gym and then went home and lived a regular life. In some ways they do... if you think weighing your food, counting calories, counting water oz and sticking to a strict schedule is 'normal'. I may actually believe now that NOBODY was ever just 'born' with it.
So... in order to have the body of a fighter I have to live a life of a fighter. This mentality is something that could really help me. Its the mental part that I've always had a problem with, but to have the reason behind the insanity may just help me get through it all and achieve a goal.
Today I sat down and planned out my food for the day. I made sure I stayed in my calorie zone of 1500... then I went back and double checked that I was getting the right percentage of carbs/protein/fat. I had to do a little tweaking here and there (exchanging eggs at lunch for more protein in tuna fish), but I ended up with the perfect food plan for today. I have my gallon jug of water that I plan on drinking and exceeding... especially if I plan on going to boxing class again tonight.
This mornings weight was 181.4.... so I'm feeling good about getting back into the 170's by next weigh in....
To be a fighter, you have to live like a fighter. <----- this may be my new mantra
Monday, October 18, 2010
Day 74 Weigh In
183.6
-2 lbs
Eh. Not what I was hoping to see, but at least it is a loss.
I am slowly figuring this whole food thing out. The hardest thing for me is to eat every couple of hours.. and then stop eating for a couple of hours. Snacks are like bombshells that are headed straight for the dam... once they hit, the dam breaks and I have to keep eating... I never feel satisfied.
I talked to my nutritionist who looked at me like I was crazy (I was obviously her first food addict) and then gave me the advice to stick to my menu and after each snack and meal to drink a giant glass of water. I wasn't sure that was going to work, but let me tell you... I can eat tons and tons of food and never feel full... but one giant glass of water and I am so full I feel sick. So, I found my secret helper. Another good thing about it is that it helps me get my water in.
I am still loving my boxing classes and am excited every time I walk into the gym. I am signed up for 6 months and I need to make the most out it.
I saw a picture of an old frienemy (half friend, half enemy) back home today. We always, secretly, had a contest going on between us to lose the weight.We were both in a singing contest a couple years back where we weighed about the same. After that we were both invited to be in a band together. It may have always been a jealousy issue (because she IS an amazing singer) but we always clashed. When we saw each other out on the town it was always a quick glance to see who was wearing the skinnier jeans. When we moved I was ahead of the game... by at least 30 lbs... but today, she looks amazing. She is easily down to 150 lbs.... I have a lot of work to do to catch up and look better! Talk about motivation. We might be going back there one day...
-2 lbs
Eh. Not what I was hoping to see, but at least it is a loss.
I talked to my nutritionist who looked at me like I was crazy (I was obviously her first food addict) and then gave me the advice to stick to my menu and after each snack and meal to drink a giant glass of water. I wasn't sure that was going to work, but let me tell you... I can eat tons and tons of food and never feel full... but one giant glass of water and I am so full I feel sick. So, I found my secret helper. Another good thing about it is that it helps me get my water in.
I am still loving my boxing classes and am excited every time I walk into the gym. I am signed up for 6 months and I need to make the most out it.
I saw a picture of an old frienemy (half friend, half enemy) back home today. We always, secretly, had a contest going on between us to lose the weight.We were both in a singing contest a couple years back where we weighed about the same. After that we were both invited to be in a band together. It may have always been a jealousy issue (because she IS an amazing singer) but we always clashed. When we saw each other out on the town it was always a quick glance to see who was wearing the skinnier jeans. When we moved I was ahead of the game... by at least 30 lbs... but today, she looks amazing. She is easily down to 150 lbs.... I have a lot of work to do to catch up and look better! Talk about motivation. We might be going back there one day...
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Day 69
I know I flipped out this week with my weight gain, but believe it or not I am taking it in stride. I talked to my nutritionist about the gain, worried that I was eating too many calories. She explained to me that because I have been starving my body of nutrition (and calories) for so long, it is storing everything right now, waiting for the next starvation to come along. She told me to hang tough and stick with it for one month.
One month.... that kinda freaked me out. I gained 6 lbs in one week... what would I do in a month?? But so far I think she was right. My daily weigh in has stayed right around 185... so no more gaining (no loss either.. .booo) and I am also working my butt off in boxing class 4 nights a week. I think my body literally went into shock.
Today I woke up and looked in the mirror. 185.4 looked a little more like 179. My back looks less rolly.. my arms are showing a little muscle.... my belly, while still a little chubby, is a little smaller. All in all, my body feels a little tighter.
I've had this feeling before. When I was 14 my daddy enrolled me in Tae Kwon Do to lose weight. I went to class 4 nights a week and would come home drenched in sweat. My dad monitored my food and made sure I was eating healthy. In 3 months I lost 50 lbs and started my freshman year of high school a sexy 145 lbs. During those 3 months I remember feeling a change going on. Everything started feeling better. Things were starting to click. Over night I went from a chubby kid to a skinny, healthy young lady. That change is what I'm feeling again. Things are starting to click in my head again. Food = Fuel.
It won't be an overnight change.... but everyday that I give it my all is one day closer to being that healthyyoung lady again.
Boxing is helping me out tons... but I'm going to find a race in town to sign up for (even if its just a 5K) to get me motivated to train again. Thursdays and Fridays will be designated running nights! I like this feeling.....
One month.... that kinda freaked me out. I gained 6 lbs in one week... what would I do in a month?? But so far I think she was right. My daily weigh in has stayed right around 185... so no more gaining (no loss either.. .booo) and I am also working my butt off in boxing class 4 nights a week. I think my body literally went into shock.
Today I woke up and looked in the mirror. 185.4 looked a little more like 179. My back looks less rolly.. my arms are showing a little muscle.... my belly, while still a little chubby, is a little smaller. All in all, my body feels a little tighter.
I've had this feeling before. When I was 14 my daddy enrolled me in Tae Kwon Do to lose weight. I went to class 4 nights a week and would come home drenched in sweat. My dad monitored my food and made sure I was eating healthy. In 3 months I lost 50 lbs and started my freshman year of high school a sexy 145 lbs. During those 3 months I remember feeling a change going on. Everything started feeling better. Things were starting to click. Over night I went from a chubby kid to a skinny, healthy young lady. That change is what I'm feeling again. Things are starting to click in my head again. Food = Fuel.
It won't be an overnight change.... but everyday that I give it my all is one day closer to being that healthy
Boxing is helping me out tons... but I'm going to find a race in town to sign up for (even if its just a 5K) to get me motivated to train again. Thursdays and Fridays will be designated running nights! I like this feeling.....
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
What can you do in 100 Days?? ... Day 67 Weigh In... what the @*&#%@$@
WT: 185.6
+ 6 lbs
What the hell?????? Seriously, I dont understand this crap. I went to a birthday party and ate... an apple. I went to a pig roast and stuck to 3 oz of pig, one small serving of beans and two bites of green bean casserole. I drank a gallon of water yesterday. I have stuck to my diet plan 100 percent. I think 1500 calories is WAY too much for me.
?????????
I am frustrated but there is nothing else I can do about it. Tonight I have boxing class . I guess I will just focus on eating healthy and drinking my water . I'm lowering my calories to 1200 again. No bread and extra salads.
Deep breaths..... I can do it.
Oh and thank you to Jack Sh*t for keeping me company .... and then reminding me why I'm doing this again!
+ 6 lbs
What the hell?????? Seriously, I dont understand this crap. I went to a birthday party and ate... an apple. I went to a pig roast and stuck to 3 oz of pig, one small serving of beans and two bites of green bean casserole. I drank a gallon of water yesterday. I have stuck to my diet plan 100 percent. I think 1500 calories is WAY too much for me.
?????????
I am frustrated but there is nothing else I can do about it. Tonight I have boxing class . I guess I will just focus on eating healthy and drinking my water . I'm lowering my calories to 1200 again. No bread and extra salads.
Deep breaths..... I can do it.
Oh and thank you to Jack Sh*t for keeping me company .... and then reminding me why I'm doing this again!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Day 63- You should see the OTHER guy!
Last night was an awesome bag class. War cries, tears, bruises and pools of sweat. I keep meaning to snap a picture when I get home, but am so exhausted I'm lucky to make it to the shower! I do have this picture to show you! I knew I kicked the bag hard last night.... I just didn't know the bag hit back!! Proof that I'm working hard....
It looks a lot worse in person, I swear! Its obvious that I am better with my right leg... cuz my left leg only has a tiny little bruise that won't even show up in a picture! LOL
Anyway, today and tomorrow are my nights off from bag class. I'm a little sad because I just love it so much.. .and I also don't know how I'm going to get an hour of walking in. I KNOW... its just walking... but its boring and I seriously hate it. If I could run, then I would totally be into it... but walking?? It doesnt help that we just moved to this city and the only place I know to walk is the 1/3 of a mile block that our house is on. *sigh* No worries, I'll get it in.
Food is food. Why does it have to be so complicated? Today my goal is 100% clean. Whether I"m over my servings or not... it will all be clean. With lots of water.
:)
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Day 62
"“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”" - Emerson
Met with the nutritionalist yesterday. The one thing I have realized is this.... its going to take a whole lot of planning.
Because everything she gave me is hers, I can't go posting it all over the web. But I will tell you that it is all about balance and servings. Which means that I have to have my whole days food planned out the second I wake up in order to make it work. It wont be too hard once I figure out all the food options I have. The best part about it all is that it is based on clean eating... and a very doable habit to make for the rest of my life. I just need to stick to it, master it and kick butt!
She did raise my calories to 1500, which did freak me out a little... but it makes sense to. We'll try it for one month and then if there is no change we will drop it down a little bit.
She also helped me figure out what I need to be doing for working out. I will be doing bag class M, W and Sat.... and doing low impact walking for 1 hour on T, Th and Friday with Sunday as my off day. It threw me off yesterday because I was planning on going to bag last night.... so instead I tried Yoga... People, I HATE yoga. I know it feels great when your all done, but damn... it sucks. So I did 10 minutes and then grabbed my shoes and headed outside for a 20 minute walk. Not at all my 1 hour walk I was supposed to do... but I just wasn't ready. Tonight is bag class and I can't wait. Then tomorrow i will be psyched up to do a one hour walk .... somewhere. :)
Today I have my food ready and counted. My water jug is full and I have a busy day a head of me.
Focus
Focus
Focus
Met with the nutritionalist yesterday. The one thing I have realized is this.... its going to take a whole lot of planning.
Because everything she gave me is hers, I can't go posting it all over the web. But I will tell you that it is all about balance and servings. Which means that I have to have my whole days food planned out the second I wake up in order to make it work. It wont be too hard once I figure out all the food options I have. The best part about it all is that it is based on clean eating... and a very doable habit to make for the rest of my life. I just need to stick to it, master it and kick butt!
She did raise my calories to 1500, which did freak me out a little... but it makes sense to. We'll try it for one month and then if there is no change we will drop it down a little bit.
She also helped me figure out what I need to be doing for working out. I will be doing bag class M, W and Sat.... and doing low impact walking for 1 hour on T, Th and Friday with Sunday as my off day. It threw me off yesterday because I was planning on going to bag last night.... so instead I tried Yoga... People, I HATE yoga. I know it feels great when your all done, but damn... it sucks. So I did 10 minutes and then grabbed my shoes and headed outside for a 20 minute walk. Not at all my 1 hour walk I was supposed to do... but I just wasn't ready. Tonight is bag class and I can't wait. Then tomorrow i will be psyched up to do a one hour walk .... somewhere. :)
Today I have my food ready and counted. My water jug is full and I have a busy day a head of me.
Focus
Focus
Focus
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Day 61
Went to boxing last night. Once again, I left a HUGE puddle of sweat! That class is amazing. Best of all, you get all of your stress out. My poor bag has really felt it. At the end of the class you spar your bag for 2 minutes. The last 15 seconds I was dying, but the guy next to me let out this huge battle cry and it made all of us dive in and give it all we had. I can't wait to go back tonight!
Today is the day the trainer from the gym comes and gives me some nutritional advice. I'm really interested in what she has to say. I'm really hoping I have an "A-ha!" moment and it all just clicks.
I've got a lot to do today... !
Today is the day the trainer from the gym comes and gives me some nutritional advice. I'm really interested in what she has to say. I'm really hoping I have an "A-ha!" moment and it all just clicks.
I've got a lot to do today... !
Monday, October 4, 2010
What can YOU do in 100 days?...... Day 60 - Weigh In Day
Last wt: 182.4
Today: 179.6
Lost! -2.8 lbs
I'm sorry for the lack of posts last week but I had a rough week with this cough and cold (and there just wasn't anything new to report) ... but by Saturday I felt good enough to go to a boxing class at the gym down the street. I punched, kicked and mountain climbed my way through an hour and felt fantastic. So good that I signed up for the class. The class is 6 days a week, but because two of the classes are midday I will only be able to make 4 of the classes. Still a good start. At least now I will have more of a scheduled workout.
I'm excited about this. To make it even better, one of the trainers at the gym has offered to help me with my nutrition. She is coming over for an hour tomorrow afternoon and then she will do follow up every Saturday after our morning boxing class. I don't know what to expect.. .or if what she tells me will be more then what I know now. But I'm hoping it will at least keep me a little more mindful about what I am eating.
Being in that gym is a very good feeling. Everyone there is serious about the shape they are in. In honesty there are maybe a handful of out of shape people.. .the rest are UFC fighters, policemen, military and trainers. I may be a little bit intimidated by it all, but in a good way. I want to look like these people... and being there 4 times a week will help me stay focused on that.
I have boxing tonight at 6 .... I can't wait!
Seeing that its day 60 and I am still bouncing back and forth with the weight is a little disheartening... but I'll be honest. I always finish with a bang, even if its with a last minute shoot to the end. So I am looking forward to these last 40 days.
Today: 179.6
Lost! -2.8 lbs
I'm excited about this. To make it even better, one of the trainers at the gym has offered to help me with my nutrition. She is coming over for an hour tomorrow afternoon and then she will do follow up every Saturday after our morning boxing class. I don't know what to expect.. .or if what she tells me will be more then what I know now. But I'm hoping it will at least keep me a little more mindful about what I am eating.
Being in that gym is a very good feeling. Everyone there is serious about the shape they are in. In honesty there are maybe a handful of out of shape people.. .the rest are UFC fighters, policemen, military and trainers. I may be a little bit intimidated by it all, but in a good way. I want to look like these people... and being there 4 times a week will help me stay focused on that.
I have boxing tonight at 6 .... I can't wait!
Seeing that its day 60 and I am still bouncing back and forth with the weight is a little disheartening... but I'll be honest. I always finish with a bang, even if its with a last minute shoot to the end. So I am looking forward to these last 40 days.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Day 54
I'm going crazy. I WANT to workout so badly... but my body just can't kick this stupid cold/cough. This morning I have a sore throat. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Plan of attack today:
Bite and Write
Lots of Water
I know in all reality I won't be able to push myself to workout until next week. Bummer.
I'm back to knitting. Its almost Christmas and I have a 4 new babies in the family to knit for. The best thing about knitting is it keeps my hands too busy to stuff food in my mouth. :)
Plan of attack today:
Bite and Write
Lots of Water
I know in all reality I won't be able to push myself to workout until next week. Bummer.
I'm back to knitting. Its almost Christmas and I have a 4 new babies in the family to knit for. The best thing about knitting is it keeps my hands too busy to stuff food in my mouth. :)
Monday, September 27, 2010
Day 53
Weigh in.. Its time to see the damage. One week of being sick, eating less then perfect and zero calories burned = 182.4 lbs.
Believe it or not, I'm ok with this. It was expected. BUT... I have a plan in place and it goes into action today. My plan is this:
Workouts:
4:30 a.m.: 2 mile run
5:00 a.m: 1 hour P90X
6:00 p.m: 3 mile run
Food:
Bite and Write
As clean as possible.
Water:
I have a gallon jug in the fridge.
OK, so I am still sick and have no intention of working out yet... but I can start with my food and water. I have a pen and pad on the counter so that everything I walk out of the kitchen with gets written down. I can't be serious about getting in shape without getting serious about my nutrition. To be honest, I think thats why I am sick right now. I havent been eating my fruits and vegetables like I used to.
I need some short term goals. My first one is to be at 172 by October 31st. That is 10 lbs in a little over a month. I feel comfortable with that. I also like the idea of being back down to that number.
Hubby is ready to do this with me. Of course, he is on the other side of this struggle. He wants to be healthy and in shape. His goal is to GAIN 25 lbs of muscle at the end of all of this. We will both be doing the P90X for 90 days.
Because of money I will not be joining the boxing gym down the street... but I figure if I am serious enough about having the body of a fighter... then I can train myself. So I did a little research and came up with my workout. Six days a week. More cardio right now to drop the weight. Morning and evening workouts.
Its going to mean a lot of dedication, but I'm ready to do it. I need to do it.
Believe it or not, I'm ok with this. It was expected. BUT... I have a plan in place and it goes into action today. My plan is this:
Workouts:
4:30 a.m.: 2 mile run
5:00 a.m: 1 hour P90X
6:00 p.m: 3 mile run
Food:
Bite and Write
As clean as possible.
Water:
I have a gallon jug in the fridge.
OK, so I am still sick and have no intention of working out yet... but I can start with my food and water. I have a pen and pad on the counter so that everything I walk out of the kitchen with gets written down. I can't be serious about getting in shape without getting serious about my nutrition. To be honest, I think thats why I am sick right now. I havent been eating my fruits and vegetables like I used to.
I need some short term goals. My first one is to be at 172 by October 31st. That is 10 lbs in a little over a month. I feel comfortable with that. I also like the idea of being back down to that number.
Hubby is ready to do this with me. Of course, he is on the other side of this struggle. He wants to be healthy and in shape. His goal is to GAIN 25 lbs of muscle at the end of all of this. We will both be doing the P90X for 90 days.
Because of money I will not be joining the boxing gym down the street... but I figure if I am serious enough about having the body of a fighter... then I can train myself. So I did a little research and came up with my workout. Six days a week. More cardio right now to drop the weight. Morning and evening workouts.
Its going to mean a lot of dedication, but I'm ready to do it. I need to do it.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Day 50
The half way point and I'm afraid I'm not doing so great.
My cold has gone into my chest and I am coughing like mad... on top of that, I sound like an old lady that smokes 5 packs a day with her whiskey. So, no, I have not been working out... or eating right. I HAVE been drinking a ton of tea... so at least my water intake is good!
Tomorrow is my boxing class and if this cough isn't a whole lot better... I can't go. This makes me really sad... I'm ready to start training for fighting (at least the voice in my head says she's ready) ... but I have to wait until this body is at least 95% healthy.
My cold has gone into my chest and I am coughing like mad... on top of that, I sound like an old lady that smokes 5 packs a day with her whiskey. So, no, I have not been working out... or eating right. I HAVE been drinking a ton of tea... so at least my water intake is good!
Tomorrow is my boxing class and if this cough isn't a whole lot better... I can't go. This makes me really sad... I'm ready to start training for fighting (at least the voice in my head says she's ready) ... but I have to wait until this body is at least 95% healthy.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Day 49
I'm sitting on my couch feeling icky. My head is throbbing, my ears are popping, my throat is sore, my voice has dropped two octaves and now I feel a cough coming on.... but I'm planning my come back.
One of my dreams in this world is to have the body of a fighter. Who doesn't want to look like Gina Cerano??
My Hubby seems to think I need to get serious and start training to be a fighter. With my background in Tae Kwon Do, Tang Su Do, Jiu Jitsu and boxing... its not that far of a stretch.... but it would mean a HUGE commitment on my side.
So what brought this on? The bag class I took at a gym down the street on Saturday morning was AWESOME. I loved it. The teacher is a boxing coach to 3 UFC fighters. One of the girls in there is 22 years old and a Golden Glove Champion in boxing. The first thing you see when you walk in the door is a floor mat and a boxing ring. People (in ah-may-zing shape) are all over the place fighting, training, sweating. It made me want to jump in and join the fun. The bag class was on hour of boxing. It had me sweating up a storm. At one point I was just focusing on not throwing up. Call me crazy, but that is the kind of workout I LOVE. It means I'm pushing myself.
If I get serious about fighting then there is a lot that would need to change. Food, exercise, routine, workouts.... in other words I have to go from just focusing on a weight goal ... to focusing on a fitness goal.
Just thinking about it right now makes me exhausted.... but excited. I have one more 'free' class at the gym before I have to make a decision on joining or not. As soon as I'm over this cold...
One of my dreams in this world is to have the body of a fighter. Who doesn't want to look like Gina Cerano??
My Hubby seems to think I need to get serious and start training to be a fighter. With my background in Tae Kwon Do, Tang Su Do, Jiu Jitsu and boxing... its not that far of a stretch.... but it would mean a HUGE commitment on my side.
So what brought this on? The bag class I took at a gym down the street on Saturday morning was AWESOME. I loved it. The teacher is a boxing coach to 3 UFC fighters. One of the girls in there is 22 years old and a Golden Glove Champion in boxing. The first thing you see when you walk in the door is a floor mat and a boxing ring. People (in ah-may-zing shape) are all over the place fighting, training, sweating. It made me want to jump in and join the fun. The bag class was on hour of boxing. It had me sweating up a storm. At one point I was just focusing on not throwing up. Call me crazy, but that is the kind of workout I LOVE. It means I'm pushing myself.
If I get serious about fighting then there is a lot that would need to change. Food, exercise, routine, workouts.... in other words I have to go from just focusing on a weight goal ... to focusing on a fitness goal.
Just thinking about it right now makes me exhausted.... but excited. I have one more 'free' class at the gym before I have to make a decision on joining or not. As soon as I'm over this cold...
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Day 48
Still sick.
My cold has moved from my sinuses to my ears and throat. Every time I swallow, my ears pop. Ugh, I hate being sick.
Anyway, I am back to the couch. I read a whole book yesterday! Its been awhile since I've done that. The book , Ill Wind , was a great read. Its the first in a series. I'm gonna try and read the second book today!
I'm laying down........
My cold has moved from my sinuses to my ears and throat. Every time I swallow, my ears pop. Ugh, I hate being sick.
Anyway, I am back to the couch. I read a whole book yesterday! Its been awhile since I've done that. The book , Ill Wind , was a great read. Its the first in a series. I'm gonna try and read the second book today!
I'm laying down........
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 47
Today I am surrounded by tissues, hot tea and good books. My nose is stuffy and my head is hurting. I managed to get my to-do list done this morning so that I could just relax the rest of the day. My question is... do I feed my cold???
I'll start with some soup. :)
I'll start with some soup. :)
Monday, September 20, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 46
181.4
I'm SORE
Hungry.... really hungry
Spent the weekend working every muscle in my body. First with a boxing class... one hour on the bag, kicking and punching. Then a fun day of playing on the lake... riding on a tube being pulled by a boat!!
This morning I got up early and met a friend of mine at the "Y". We did a 1 hour spin class... (my butt is killing me) and a 1 hour abs class. On top of the extreme soreness I have from the boxing class... I will now be having a whole lot of leg pain... but it feels good... makes me feel... alive!!
Tomorrow is a rest day... Today, I need to focus on eating well and drinking tons of water.
I'm SORE
Hungry.... really hungry
Spent the weekend working every muscle in my body. First with a boxing class... one hour on the bag, kicking and punching. Then a fun day of playing on the lake... riding on a tube being pulled by a boat!!
This morning I got up early and met a friend of mine at the "Y". We did a 1 hour spin class... (my butt is killing me) and a 1 hour abs class. On top of the extreme soreness I have from the boxing class... I will now be having a whole lot of leg pain... but it feels good... makes me feel... alive!!
Tomorrow is a rest day... Today, I need to focus on eating well and drinking tons of water.
Friday, September 17, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 43
WT: ???
Feeling: TGIF
Where is my head?: In the game!
Its Friday, and right now I am reminding myself that just because I get a break from everything else during the weekend... I can't take a break from my diet. In fact, the weekend is the time that I can make the biggest difference. With Hubby being home I am able to leave the kids with him and go DO something. Hiking, biking, gym... all the stuff I can't do during the week. So, if I can stay motivated... eat right... drink water.. then I can also get in some awesome calorie burning and have a loss on the scale on Monday morning. Sounds like a good plan right? Now to see it happen!
Woke up this morning and did another Jillian Michael workout... this one was Exercise On Demand's Boost Metabolism. It was a great workout and I really enjoyed doing it. I'm finding that working out every OTHER day is very helpful. I don't feel worn out... and when I don't feel like doing it I just remind myself that tomorrow is a day off!
Weigh in on Mondays from now on. Yes, I will be hiding my scale from myself. This may mean going a little crazy for the next couple of days... I don't even want to think about doing it for a whole WEEK... but I think that just focusing on doing everything right, without a number in the back of my head, will help me. We'll give it a try.
:)
Feeling: TGIF
Where is my head?: In the game!
Its Friday, and right now I am reminding myself that just because I get a break from everything else during the weekend... I can't take a break from my diet. In fact, the weekend is the time that I can make the biggest difference. With Hubby being home I am able to leave the kids with him and go DO something. Hiking, biking, gym... all the stuff I can't do during the week. So, if I can stay motivated... eat right... drink water.. then I can also get in some awesome calorie burning and have a loss on the scale on Monday morning. Sounds like a good plan right? Now to see it happen!
Woke up this morning and did another Jillian Michael workout... this one was Exercise On Demand's Boost Metabolism. It was a great workout and I really enjoyed doing it. I'm finding that working out every OTHER day is very helpful. I don't feel worn out... and when I don't feel like doing it I just remind myself that tomorrow is a day off!
Weigh in on Mondays from now on. Yes, I will be hiding my scale from myself. This may mean going a little crazy for the next couple of days... I don't even want to think about doing it for a whole WEEK... but I think that just focusing on doing everything right, without a number in the back of my head, will help me. We'll give it a try.
:)
Thursday, September 16, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 42
Wt: 178.4
Feeling ? : tired
Where's my head? : In the game baby!!!
I went out last night for a girls night. We went to a karaoke bar. I learned two things.. First, karaoke is not the same on the east coast as it is on the west coast. It could have just been that bar.. but I was not getting into it. Second, I'm getting too old for bars. I really have a hard time putting up with people in general... add alcohol to that mix and I spend most of the night rolling my eyes and trying to ignore people.
Anyway, I was home by midnight and , of course, the kids woke up super early this morning... so I am exhausted today. I dont see a whole lot getting done today.
So, I got all dressed up.. had makeup on... and didn't take one picture. I know... CRAZY! But I did take one for you this morning..
I couldn't believe that the scale said 178 this morning. Its a rest day, so no sweating... but I'm definitely sticking to the food and water!
Feeling ? : tired
Where's my head? : In the game baby!!!
I went out last night for a girls night. We went to a karaoke bar. I learned two things.. First, karaoke is not the same on the east coast as it is on the west coast. It could have just been that bar.. but I was not getting into it. Second, I'm getting too old for bars. I really have a hard time putting up with people in general... add alcohol to that mix and I spend most of the night rolling my eyes and trying to ignore people.
Anyway, I was home by midnight and , of course, the kids woke up super early this morning... so I am exhausted today. I dont see a whole lot getting done today.
So, I got all dressed up.. had makeup on... and didn't take one picture. I know... CRAZY! But I did take one for you this morning..
I couldn't believe that the scale said 178 this morning. Its a rest day, so no sweating... but I'm definitely sticking to the food and water!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 41
Sometimes you need to look over your shoulder and take a look at where you started. If you are a blogger, then you have it made. Everything has been documented... from day 1 to day 13987. Including pictures.
I needed a little inspiration last night... so I took a look at my old blog and read the first month or so of my journey. It included these pictures:
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Its funny how your forget. I knew I was overweight, but I had forgotten what it looked like. Maybe because my idea of overweight is what I look like now. But looking back at where I started, it gave me a new look at how far I've come and how good I'm doing. How far have I come?
I may not be where I want to be ... yet.... but I am definitely going in the right direction.
Woke up this morning and did Jillian Michaels Day 1 of her 30 Day Shred. It was on Exercise On Demand... and I have to say I really liked it. I might have to get the other 29 days!
Feeling good today. :)
I needed a little inspiration last night... so I took a look at my old blog and read the first month or so of my journey. It included these pictures:
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Its funny how your forget. I knew I was overweight, but I had forgotten what it looked like. Maybe because my idea of overweight is what I look like now. But looking back at where I started, it gave me a new look at how far I've come and how good I'm doing. How far have I come?
I may not be where I want to be ... yet.... but I am definitely going in the right direction.
Woke up this morning and did Jillian Michaels Day 1 of her 30 Day Shred. It was on Exercise On Demand... and I have to say I really liked it. I might have to get the other 29 days!
Feeling good today. :)
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 40
WT: ???
FEELING: Sore
Where's My Head?: Eh...
Ok, so all day yesterday I suffered from some weird flu bug. I would get extremely cold and then minutes later be drenched in sweat. Kind of like some hot flash from hell... but with it were some excruciating stomach cramps and dry heaving.
This morning I am sore. I'm not sure it its from my run yesterday morning... or from the dry heaving. Either way, my muscles are hurting. I'll be drinking tons of water again today. I didn't go for a run today, figuring I needed the rest way more. If I get to feeling better today I might do a workout video tomorrow morning... or maybe just a walk.
Speaking of videos... I am way overdue for a review of this one!
Lynn Hahn is an amazing woman. Having struggled with a food disorder herself, she understands the need for a good workout DVD that makes you focus on a healthy body. This one was awesome. Simple cardio moves to keep the heart rate up... with toning moves in between. She also has kickboxing, boxing and bands workouts that I want to try too. You can buy her workouts on Amazon... or check out her web page!! Definitely a good workout to put into the mix!
I feel better today, just a little drained. It may be another day of laying on the couch and drinking tea. If that's what my body needs... so be it.
FEELING: Sore
Where's My Head?: Eh...
Ok, so all day yesterday I suffered from some weird flu bug. I would get extremely cold and then minutes later be drenched in sweat. Kind of like some hot flash from hell... but with it were some excruciating stomach cramps and dry heaving.
This morning I am sore. I'm not sure it its from my run yesterday morning... or from the dry heaving. Either way, my muscles are hurting. I'll be drinking tons of water again today. I didn't go for a run today, figuring I needed the rest way more. If I get to feeling better today I might do a workout video tomorrow morning... or maybe just a walk.
Speaking of videos... I am way overdue for a review of this one!
Lynn Hahn is an amazing woman. Having struggled with a food disorder herself, she understands the need for a good workout DVD that makes you focus on a healthy body. This one was awesome. Simple cardio moves to keep the heart rate up... with toning moves in between. She also has kickboxing, boxing and bands workouts that I want to try too. You can buy her workouts on Amazon... or check out her web page!! Definitely a good workout to put into the mix!
I feel better today, just a little drained. It may be another day of laying on the couch and drinking tea. If that's what my body needs... so be it.
Monday, September 13, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 39
Wt: ???
Feeling: headache from hell
Where is my head: Surprisingly... very positive.
My weekend was full of ups and downs... both physically and mentally.
This morning Hubby woke me up at 4:30 a.m. I laid in bed for 15 minutes wondering if I was actually going to do this, before finally deciding that if I didn't try it would be a waste of a perfectly good morning. So I hopped up, put on my running clothes and shoes and ran out the door.
One of the coolest things about where we moved to is that we live in one HUGE circle.... with a sidewalk and street lights every 50 feet. It felt like my own, personal running track. I went to MapMyRun and figured out that 3 times around is exactly one mile!
So, I got in a run. Mentally, I feel a little better. Physically, my head still hurts.
Gonna drink lots of water today.
Feeling: headache from hell
Where is my head: Surprisingly... very positive.
My weekend was full of ups and downs... both physically and mentally.
This morning Hubby woke me up at 4:30 a.m. I laid in bed for 15 minutes wondering if I was actually going to do this, before finally deciding that if I didn't try it would be a waste of a perfectly good morning. So I hopped up, put on my running clothes and shoes and ran out the door.
One of the coolest things about where we moved to is that we live in one HUGE circle.... with a sidewalk and street lights every 50 feet. It felt like my own, personal running track. I went to MapMyRun and figured out that 3 times around is exactly one mile!
So, I got in a run. Mentally, I feel a little better. Physically, my head still hurts.
Gonna drink lots of water today.
Friday, September 10, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 36
WT: 181
FEELING: Icky
WHERE IS MY HEAD: I want a big stack of pancakes for breakfast, but I'll settle for a glass of cucumber, carrot and celery juice with a side of oatmeal. :)
I had a great comment yesterday:
So you're just trying to reach goal in this 100 day? Or are you looking to live/eat this way the rest of your life? You can certainly reach goal, but, whether or not you stay there is the real challenge of this 100 day isn't it?
I for one, think you look great since you first started. I don't care what the scale is telling you and why you're allowing this piece of equipment to tell you how well you've done.
Look at theses pictures. You look amazing. Stop beating yourself up on numbers. Each time you weigh yourself, it could be a day you are bloated then the next day, you could lose like 2 lbs. So which day should you really count?? LOL
I think you should base the rest of this journey on inches.
Because I know, you can be 181 and still end up with a size 12 or 10 waistline. So, what does that tell you?
The goal of this 100 day challenge is to finally lose the weight. I have been struggling on this journey for over 4 years now. 4 YEARS. Now, I know that this will be a lifelong thing.... but right now I am focused on getting to my goal weight. After that I will focus on maintaining... I already know that there will never be a time that I can let my guard down. Eating healthy will always be a challenge for me. I am addicted to food... just like an addiction to drugs or alcohol... it is never gone. You see, I was actually very happy at 173 lbs. So happy that I quit worrying about the scale. I thought I was doing fine. In a month I gained 8 lbs. If I don't see it as a challenge then I just let it go... and in less then 6 months I could gain it all back.
If I dont reach my goal weight by the end? No harm done. My journey will continue. This 'challenge' may be over on the 100th day... but the true challenge will continue on, until the day I die.
Thank you for the compliments on the pictures. I do see how good I look now.... 50 lbs lighter then I was at my heaviest.... but for me, its not enough. I want to see myself in the best shape of my life. I want to see myself in the shape and weight that this body was meant to be. I have been heavy my whole life... I want to finally see what the real me is supposed to look like.
The number on the scale does have me trapped. It is what I gauge my day on. If I am seeing a low number, then I feel strong and know that I am on the right track... if I see a high number then I get determined to do better. It sounds crazy.. and maybe it is... but for me, its how I survive.
Right now I am in a size 12 pants. Yes, it is a perfectly wonderful size to wear... but I want to know if I can wear a size 9... or a size 6... or maybe, just maybe a size 4.
I'm not looking to be rail thin and sickly. I am doing this the healthiest way I know possible. I am eating the right foods and working out to strengthen my body. Having already faced cancer once, my fear is that if I should get sick again, would I have the right tools to fight it again? A healthy body and a strong mind.
Some of this may sound crazy. You may think I've got it all wrong. To tell you the truth I already know that the way I think of food is wrong... but I'm trying to rewire my brain from years and years of bad food. I may look great now... but I want to look better. I may be obsessed with the numbers.... but that is my way of dealing with it.
This is not meant to be an argument... if anything I just wanted to explain my way of thinking a little more. I appreciate all the comments that have been left on here and I want to thank all of you who have been reading and following along.... (Lucas, I would love to follow along on your 100 day challenge!!!) ....
As for today, its back to juicing, water, protein (solids, not shakes) and working out~ Have a great day :)
FEELING: Icky
WHERE IS MY HEAD: I want a big stack of pancakes for breakfast, but I'll settle for a glass of cucumber, carrot and celery juice with a side of oatmeal. :)
I had a great comment yesterday:
So you're just trying to reach goal in this 100 day? Or are you looking to live/eat this way the rest of your life? You can certainly reach goal, but, whether or not you stay there is the real challenge of this 100 day isn't it?
I for one, think you look great since you first started. I don't care what the scale is telling you and why you're allowing this piece of equipment to tell you how well you've done.
Look at theses pictures. You look amazing. Stop beating yourself up on numbers. Each time you weigh yourself, it could be a day you are bloated then the next day, you could lose like 2 lbs. So which day should you really count?? LOL
I think you should base the rest of this journey on inches.
Because I know, you can be 181 and still end up with a size 12 or 10 waistline. So, what does that tell you?
The goal of this 100 day challenge is to finally lose the weight. I have been struggling on this journey for over 4 years now. 4 YEARS. Now, I know that this will be a lifelong thing.... but right now I am focused on getting to my goal weight. After that I will focus on maintaining... I already know that there will never be a time that I can let my guard down. Eating healthy will always be a challenge for me. I am addicted to food... just like an addiction to drugs or alcohol... it is never gone. You see, I was actually very happy at 173 lbs. So happy that I quit worrying about the scale. I thought I was doing fine. In a month I gained 8 lbs. If I don't see it as a challenge then I just let it go... and in less then 6 months I could gain it all back.
If I dont reach my goal weight by the end? No harm done. My journey will continue. This 'challenge' may be over on the 100th day... but the true challenge will continue on, until the day I die.
Thank you for the compliments on the pictures. I do see how good I look now.... 50 lbs lighter then I was at my heaviest.... but for me, its not enough. I want to see myself in the best shape of my life. I want to see myself in the shape and weight that this body was meant to be. I have been heavy my whole life... I want to finally see what the real me is supposed to look like.
The number on the scale does have me trapped. It is what I gauge my day on. If I am seeing a low number, then I feel strong and know that I am on the right track... if I see a high number then I get determined to do better. It sounds crazy.. and maybe it is... but for me, its how I survive.
Right now I am in a size 12 pants. Yes, it is a perfectly wonderful size to wear... but I want to know if I can wear a size 9... or a size 6... or maybe, just maybe a size 4.
I'm not looking to be rail thin and sickly. I am doing this the healthiest way I know possible. I am eating the right foods and working out to strengthen my body. Having already faced cancer once, my fear is that if I should get sick again, would I have the right tools to fight it again? A healthy body and a strong mind.
Some of this may sound crazy. You may think I've got it all wrong. To tell you the truth I already know that the way I think of food is wrong... but I'm trying to rewire my brain from years and years of bad food. I may look great now... but I want to look better. I may be obsessed with the numbers.... but that is my way of dealing with it.
This is not meant to be an argument... if anything I just wanted to explain my way of thinking a little more. I appreciate all the comments that have been left on here and I want to thank all of you who have been reading and following along.... (Lucas, I would love to follow along on your 100 day challenge!!!) ....
As for today, its back to juicing, water, protein (solids, not shakes) and working out~ Have a great day :)
Thursday, September 9, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 35
FEELING: Bloated and dehydrated.
WHERE IS MY HEAD: I'm ready to show ya'll what I can do in
I'm a little annoyed at myself for all the days I've wasted. My idea at challenging myself to 100 days was to see a HUGE change. Instead it looks like I am doing what I've always done... wait until the very last second and then lose it. Well, I still have 65 days to show you all (and myself) that I can reach my goal weight... NOW.
Lets do a little math:
181.6 (todays wt) - 155 (goal wt) = 26.6 lbs / 65 days = 0.4 lbs a day
If I can lose .4 lbs a day... or 2.8 lbs a week... then I will reach goal on my 100th day!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 34
So, for the last year or so we have noticed that my older daughters little quirks are becoming more and more pronounced. Home schooling my kids has also allowed me to see them in a different light. This being said, my daughter has been diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. A milder case of Autism.
When I think about it, it really doesn't bother me. At all. I worry that she will have a little more to deal with... but other then that, it is just a matter of working a little more with her. I am heading to the library today to do a little more research and see if there is anything I can do to make math a little easier for her. Her strong point is reading. She can read at a 2nd grade level (she is in first grade) but suffers when it comes to simple math problems.
Anyway, this has affected my food. Not for any other reason then I have an excuse to eat like crap. Seriously. I am not stressed out about it. I am not depressed about it. I just have something going on in my life that I could use as an excuse to eat all the cookies in the house. So I did.
Crap.
Now that I have admitted that... lets hope the rest of the day goes better.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 33
I went grocery shopping this weekend and got plenty of fruit and vegetables. I am excited to get back to my shakes for breakfast and my stir fry veggies and soups for lunches!
Its back to the grind after a long weekend, so I'm afraid this post will be short.
Monday, September 6, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 32
Wt: 178.6
Spent the weekend fighting off the flu. I am feeling much better today and even did a workout with my Hubby. 50 pull-ups and 100 push-ups done!! Pictures tomorrow!!
Spent the weekend fighting off the flu. I am feeling much better today and even did a workout with my Hubby. 50 pull-ups and 100 push-ups done!! Pictures tomorrow!!
Friday, September 3, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 29
Wt: 178.6
A rest day seems to have been needed. I dropped a ton of water weight in one day. Love, love, love it!!
Although today is a scheduled workout day, my toothache is back with a vengeance. I tried to workout out, but with every jump and step my tooth throbbed. So, I took some aspirin and will watch my food once again. Lots of water... and most likely I will be eating soup for lunch and dinner.
I can't find my camera anywhere. As soon as I do I will post my progress picture.
Yay for being back in the 170's!!!!
A rest day seems to have been needed. I dropped a ton of water weight in one day. Love, love, love it!!
Although today is a scheduled workout day, my toothache is back with a vengeance. I tried to workout out, but with every jump and step my tooth throbbed. So, I took some aspirin and will watch my food once again. Lots of water... and most likely I will be eating soup for lunch and dinner.
I can't find my camera anywhere. As soon as I do I will post my progress picture.
Yay for being back in the 170's!!!!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 28
You know your day is going to be bad when you wake up to two dead goldfish. Apparently I am not the only one here who thinks the tap water is disgusting. We had to empty half the water out of the tank yesterday to get it from my sisters house to our house. Mind you, we're talking about a little 2 gallon tank that holds two little goldfish. When we got home I filled up the tank with tap water... not remembering we not longer have the cleanest water in the world anymore. Needless to say, I had to take the girls to the pet store first thing this morning to buy them new fish.... and the droplets you apparently have to put in the tank here in order to clear the water. This makes me wonder, if its not safe for fish... is it safe for me? Granted I am not a tiny little 1 oz fish... but still. Its gotta add up.
Anyway, that was the start of my day. Since then I have had a toothache from H-E-double hockey sticks... but our dental insurance doesn't kick in for another 6 weeks. :( My neighbor found a deadly snake on her back porch and said it was headed our way... and the kids have needed a referee more then once.
If anything, it has helped with the food. I've had a protein shake for breakfast.... a bowl of spaghetti for lunch... and a cup of tea. Since I'm not feeling great I figured it was a perfect day for a rest day.
Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow.
Anyway, that was the start of my day. Since then I have had a toothache from H-E-double hockey sticks... but our dental insurance doesn't kick in for another 6 weeks. :( My neighbor found a deadly snake on her back porch and said it was headed our way... and the kids have needed a referee more then once.
If anything, it has helped with the food. I've had a protein shake for breakfast.... a bowl of spaghetti for lunch... and a cup of tea. Since I'm not feeling great I figured it was a perfect day for a rest day.
Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 27
Here I am after a 20 minute Core workout. The picture doesn't show the sweat dripping... but trust me, it was!
I had a pretty good day yesterday with food. I think where I messed up was water. I need to drink WAY MORE WATER! I did buy a Britta water filter so that I can drink the water here. I guess I got spoiled living out in the country with well water. City water is nasty... but its water and I need to drink A LOT of it.
My amazing, awesome, sweet, thoughtful, loving sister (yes, she reads my blog, but she really IS all those things) got me an electric tea pot that I am in love with. It makes the perfect cup of tea! It also only takes 2 minutes... which means less time for me to look in the cupboards while I'm waiting. :)
I know my weight is up today for a reason. My leg workout yesterday has my legs SO sore. They have to be swollen with water... lets hope. Anyway, as sad as I am that I'm in the 180's again... I AM in the mindset to get out of it fast... so here is to a good day today.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 26
Well, here I am, a month into my own challenge and I am UP to 181.6 ~ugh~
Its ok though. I have done a lot of work on my mental state the past month and I am pretty sure that I can turn this train around and start going in the right direction. How, you ask? Well, for starters, there will not be any temptation in the house. When it comes to fighting temptations I fail, miserably. I will also stick to 3 meals a day. I know, everyone recommends 5 meals a day... but for me it just doesn't work. Its just too much food in front of me all day long. I tend to overindulge. If I stick to 3 healthy meals a day, then I can keep myself honest and on track.
I worked out this morning... did you know that cable out here has an On Demand Exercise channel?? It was great. I did a 26 min kick boxing workout and a 26 min lower body workout. I'm gonna take total advantage of this~
Today will be the hardest. My body will be going through a detox. No sugar, no carbs, no dairy. I have a gallon of water by my side to drink and if I feel the urge to snack I can have a cup of tea to fill me up. I already unpacked my juicer and had a carrot, celery and cucumber drink. Yummy!
Well, it is time for me to get off the computer and get my day going. I'm going to keep a positive mindset and just focus on today. :)
Monday, August 30, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 25
So we are finally moved into our new place (and have internet! Yay!). I can tell you right now that it will be a great place for me to get in shape. Why? Because it has stairs. 16, to be exact. I know because I started counting after the 5th time that I forgot something upstairs that I needed downstairs. I need to start running again just to be able to survive my house.
So, it is a quarter of the way thru my 100 day challenge... what have I learned? That I can be really hard headed That I know exactly what I need to do , just need to get the mindset to do it. (and I think I'm getting close) That I should be the new Capt. Morgan model... because lets face it, I look good doing 'the pose'.... which reminds me. Starting tomorrow I am back to taking my daily morning pics.
Now that I am in my own home it will be much easier to control my food. I have a living room big enough for me to workout in (check back for some DVD workout reviews!) and school is back in session, so I have a schedule to stick to again. All of this equals the perfect setting to achieve maximum weight loss. So lets get started. Tomorrow morning we will see the weight (expect a gain, I'll be honest) and a picture. From here on out I am ready to start seeing results... no more fooling around.
So, it is a quarter of the way thru my 100 day challenge... what have I learned? That I can be really hard headed That I know exactly what I need to do , just need to get the mindset to do it. (and I think I'm getting close) That I should be the new Capt. Morgan model... because lets face it, I look good doing 'the pose'.... which reminds me. Starting tomorrow I am back to taking my daily morning pics.
Now that I am in my own home it will be much easier to control my food. I have a living room big enough for me to workout in (check back for some DVD workout reviews!) and school is back in session, so I have a schedule to stick to again. All of this equals the perfect setting to achieve maximum weight loss. So lets get started. Tomorrow morning we will see the weight (expect a gain, I'll be honest) and a picture. From here on out I am ready to start seeing results... no more fooling around.
Friday, August 27, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 23
Today is moving day. I was sweating from head to toe. At one point I felt like I was soaked to the bone... only to look down and see that I was. The humidity out here does some crazy things... but the biggest one is the way it makes you sweat. Once I started, I couldnt stop.
Tomorrow is another day of moving, so I am leaving you with a picture of me with no makeup on after a long day of moving. Its a terrible picture, but its me at my rawest.
I can't wait to be done with this and get settled down in our house.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 22
When its all said and done... our life consist of one day. We are what we are today... not tomorrow, not yesterday. Today is your life. Sure, everyday we have lived, and will live, affects us. But in reality today is the only day we have any control over. We are always told to live our lives to the fullest but I think we sometimes take advantage of tomorrow.
"I'll start tomorrow" "Ill call her tomorrow" "I can do it tomorrow"
Being able to take control of your life, you have to be able to give up tomorrow and do it today. The big question is this. Will you take today and make it a day of eating right, working out and feeling better? Or will you take today and indulge in fatty food... sit in front of the tv.... feel tired and depressed? How do you want to feel tonight when you go lay down in your bed?
I want to feel proud of myself... I want to feel strong... I want to know that I did the best I could.
Today was not one of those. At least, not yet.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 21
It was 'Adventure Day' today... as is every Wednesday... and I took the kids fishing. Not much of a workout, but the morning was beautiful. Just being able to sit down and breathe the early morning air felt good.
I am having a hard day today... food wise, mentally and physically. It has been one of those days where physically I don't feel good, mentally I am tired and not in the right mindset and food has just followed. I feel a little like this is never going to happen for me. The war I am waging with my addiction to food is just overwhelming sometimes.
I know many of you look to me for motivation... but sometimes, even I, have nothing. Today I am watching tv, packing my things and getting ready for our move this weekend. I am trying to ignore the kitchen all together.
Until tomorrow....
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 20
So, yesterday went well. Lots of water, tea and veggies. It was easier then I remember. When I felt like snacking I grabbed a cup of tea. I ate a TON of veggies... especially in my famous veggie soup for lunch!
One bag frozen stir fry veggies
One cup chicken broth
Add onions and garlic
Cook until hot
Pour into a blender with some seasonings and blend!
This is a huge serving (I'll only eat half of it and put the rest in the fridge for a snack or dinner later!)
The color is never pretty... but the taste is Ah-May-Zing!!! Plus, it is super good for you and VERY filling. Best of all, you can change it everyday. Use different veggies... like squash or bell peppers. The more you experiment, the more flavors you will find.
I forgot how much I love doing this!! I'm ready for another day. :)
Monday, August 23, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 19
Sometimes you have to look into the past to find what you did wrong.... or right. I was laying in bed this morning thinking how hard it is to lose weight. How unfair that I can't eat what I want and stay skinny. I even questioned how badly I want to be skinny. I mean, maybe I was meant to be chubby.
Ok, so who am I kidding. Why would I want to go back to being unhappy, depressed, uncomfortable and just plain miserable? There is a reason I started this, now going on 4 years, journey. I want to be happy, healthy and comfortable in my clothes. This may take some time, but in the end it really is worth it.
I have already proved that losing 50 lbs can bring about new adventures. Like running (and finishing!) a half marathon. So what will the last 20-30 lbs bring me?
Ok, so back to the beginning. What was I doing and eating when I was dropping weight and feeling so good about it? How did I get on that track? Where do I get back on?
Protein shakes and vegetables. Water and tea. Three meals a day and a thirty minute run every morning. Vitamins and NO SUGAR.
From what I can remember, once I got started I felt really good. I dropped weight fast and felt, mentally, fantastic.
I'm gonna give that plan a try today.... see how I feel. :)
Ok, so who am I kidding. Why would I want to go back to being unhappy, depressed, uncomfortable and just plain miserable? There is a reason I started this, now going on 4 years, journey. I want to be happy, healthy and comfortable in my clothes. This may take some time, but in the end it really is worth it.
I have already proved that losing 50 lbs can bring about new adventures. Like running (and finishing!) a half marathon. So what will the last 20-30 lbs bring me?
Ok, so back to the beginning. What was I doing and eating when I was dropping weight and feeling so good about it? How did I get on that track? Where do I get back on?
Protein shakes and vegetables. Water and tea. Three meals a day and a thirty minute run every morning. Vitamins and NO SUGAR.
From what I can remember, once I got started I felt really good. I dropped weight fast and felt, mentally, fantastic.
I'm gonna give that plan a try today.... see how I feel. :)
Sunday, August 22, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 18
Do you ever find yourself eating like there was no tomorrow? Like the food in your kitchen was going to all go bad within the hour if you didn't eat it all NOW?
There is part of me that goes into survival mode every afternoon. I feel like I need to eat, eat, eat. Thankfully I have been able to recognize this behavior. The past couple of days I have done a number of 'drive by's in the kitchen. You know, where you go through opening every cabinet, door and drawer trying to find something that will quench your hunger. Back in the day it took a couple or 10 tries before finding the right food to quench that hunger. I'd start with some crackers, then some peanut butter, maybe a piece of cheese or two, a sandwich, a pickle and then FINALLY figured out that one piece of cake was what I needed. Get the idea?
Lately I have been able to talk myself into a cup of tea or a glass of water whenever these little drive by's happen. I tell myself "I only have (x amount of time) before dinner" and then fill my belly with water. So far it has saved me from a 600 calorie snack every afternoon. On top of that, with all the water in my belly, I've been eating a lot less at dinner time.
Notice I haven't posted my weight on here lately... well, I have not stepped on the scale. Trust me, its KILLING me not knowing where I stand... but I want to see how these next two weeks of focusing on food do before I start looking at numbers again. *sigh*
There is part of me that goes into survival mode every afternoon. I feel like I need to eat, eat, eat. Thankfully I have been able to recognize this behavior. The past couple of days I have done a number of 'drive by's in the kitchen. You know, where you go through opening every cabinet, door and drawer trying to find something that will quench your hunger. Back in the day it took a couple or 10 tries before finding the right food to quench that hunger. I'd start with some crackers, then some peanut butter, maybe a piece of cheese or two, a sandwich, a pickle and then FINALLY figured out that one piece of cake was what I needed. Get the idea?
Lately I have been able to talk myself into a cup of tea or a glass of water whenever these little drive by's happen. I tell myself "I only have (x amount of time) before dinner" and then fill my belly with water. So far it has saved me from a 600 calorie snack every afternoon. On top of that, with all the water in my belly, I've been eating a lot less at dinner time.
Notice I haven't posted my weight on here lately... well, I have not stepped on the scale. Trust me, its KILLING me not knowing where I stand... but I want to see how these next two weeks of focusing on food do before I start looking at numbers again. *sigh*
Saturday, August 21, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 17
Sorry for the late posts, but life has been interesting. Two months ago we moved across the country.. .today we finally found a place of our own! Here it is... two bedrooms and a bathroom upstairs.... bathroom, kitchen, living room and dining room downstairs!
Just to remind you of what I look like, here is me driving home after signing the lease. We move in next weekend!! (I dont look very happy here, but I was pretty thrilled!)
Friday, August 20, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 16
Today I bought a book called Skinny Bitchin' by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin. Its somewhat of a daily diary... with a little bit of daily directions. For example, tomorrows directions (page 1):
What have you failed at in the past that you now regret? Or what task, project, or goal are you avoiding because its challenging? Today, start taking it on. And this time, don't be such a pussy when things get tough.
"When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it." - Henry Ford.
Does this sum me up right now or what!??! I think I'm gonna like this book. :)
What have you failed at in the past that you now regret? Or what task, project, or goal are you avoiding because its challenging? Today, start taking it on. And this time, don't be such a pussy when things get tough.
"When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it." - Henry Ford.
Does this sum me up right now or what!??! I think I'm gonna like this book. :)
Thursday, August 19, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 15
Losing weight is a battle for everyone. Whether you are just trying to lose 10 lbs or 110 lbs, its not easy. I wanted to give myself a little push by starting this 100 day challenge. First, it gave me a timeline. Not something I recommend doing if you are just starting out. Giving yourself a deadline to lose weight can either push you to do better.... or completely backfire on you and then you are in a worse place (mentally) then when you started. I have been on this roller coaster for 3 years now. I've lost 50 lbs and have stalled out. I need the push to get momentum again.
Second, the challenge is helping me gain insight on my habits. Facing yourself in this battle is the hardest reality of losing weight. When you have an addiction to food... as I do... you have to find the reason behind it all. I don't have an addiction 'just because'. I wasn't wired this way at birth. Something happened to me that flipped a switch in my head and caused me to turn to food for comfort.
I know what that event was... and as much as I would love to share it with you, some things just need to be kept off the world wide web. Just know that I know what that was.... and in all honesty, it was more then one event.
The trick now is to figure out how to flip that switch again. I've done it before, only to hit a wall and knock it over again. So now it is a battle of will. A mental fight to get my mind back into the shape that it was. Its not something that can be done in one day.... but it can be done day to day. As long as I admit to myself every day that I know what my problem is... then I can face it and work on it every day until eventually it will just be habit.
Sometimes the problem on the outside starts with the problem on the inside. Looking back on the last two weeks I have been worried about the outside a little too much. Lets focus on the inside for the next two weeks and see if the weight drops a little faster.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 14
179 lbs
Woke the girls up at O'dark 30 to go bike riding in the local park and then a healthy breakfast picnic by the lake! It was a beautiful morning to take a deep breath and just enjoy each other.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 13
Will be back tomorrow with your regular schedule pictures. Today just started out bad and my head is not in the right mindset to blog. Thanks for understanding.
Monday, August 16, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 12
178.4 lbs (-2.6 lbs)
I love it when bone and muscle starts showing... cheek bones, collar bones and arms!! Yay
I have Zumba tonight with my sister!! Until then I will be cleaning house and loading up on water. :)
Sunday, August 15, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 11
"What's the point of all of this if you’re not going to let it change you?" - a quote from the movie To Save A Life.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 10
I know, I know, I'm late on my pictures... but I had to wait until I got home from going to the Farmers Market where I bought some amazing fruit. Blueberries, peaches and blackberries. Is it bad that, besides the peaches, the only thing I can think of making with the berries are cobblers and pies??? Bad, right? I did enjoy a fresh peach on the way home. Juicy!!
Of course, I couldn't come home without something for the kids. A wooden plane for them to paint later on today.
No picture of me today... and no weight ( for the first time in weeks, I forgot to step on the scale this morning. Maybe a good thing????)
Get out there and enjoy your day. Have an adventure.
Friday, August 13, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 9
Just for Fat Daddy... the Captain Morgan Leg Up picture!! This was taken last night after my Tae Kwon Do class. I was pretty sweaty... but you should have seen me BEFORE the 20 min drive home in air conditioning!
I loved the class and am looking forward to going every Tues and Thurs. On top of that I will be doing the Zumba class on Mondays and trail hikes with the kids on Wednesday mornings. I guess I will take Friday, Saturday and Sunday as my rest days. :) Unless I can find another class to fill them in!!
Today's weight is 180. I'm starting to think my food isn't as good as I think it is. Time to re-evaluate what I'm eating. Too many carbs? Not enough protein??
One thing is for sure... MORE WATER.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
What Can You Do In 100 Days?? ... DAY 8
180.0
Who I'm doing this for....
Keeping my head up and my stomach empty... except for 100% natural food. Today is a rest day from the elliptical, but if I can get myself going today I will be doing Tae Kwon Do tonight. I will get a sweaty picture of that up for you tomorrow!!
A little something from my fav blogger in the world... who just happened to hit her goal weight recently!!.. This hit home with me.. I am SO the perfectionist.
I think a lot of people with weight issues do suffer from trying to be perfect - and then give up when they 'fail' - when they are not perfect. (Personally, I don't believe you ever 'fail' at weight loss or anything else until you stop trying. Stumbling isn't failing. A bad choice isn't failing. Staying down and not trying to get out of that place IS failing.)
I don't know if it's because I was more mature when I started this last time in 2006, but I realized somewhere along my journey that I had 2 options:
- I could follow my natural desire to be "perfect" and then be upset all the time because it's impossible, and potentially give up on my weight loss efforts (again) or just being extremely disappointed in myself for not living up to being "perfect" enough.
- I could allow myself to be "human" - i.e. not perfect. Accept that I can not and will not be perfect - and allow myself to stumble; as long as I accept this is forever and I promise myself I will never give up.
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